"i didn't mean to hurt you / i'm sorry that i mad you cry / i didn't want to hurt you..."
-John Lennon: Jealous Guy
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A bartender ripped me off yesterday. Well, Im not sure if he meant to or not, but I bought a rum and coke for $6 and paid with a twenty. What I got back however, was $4. Now, Im...
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-John Lennon: Jealous Guy
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A bartender ripped me off yesterday. Well, Im not sure if he meant to or not, but I bought a rum and coke for $6 and paid with a twenty. What I got back however, was $4. Now, Im...
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It's Elvis' birthday today. If that means nothing to you then I'll personally beat the shit out of you.
Long live the King!
***EDIT***
I have ticket #1 to the SG Burlesque show in San Diego.
Sweet.
Long live the King!
***EDIT***
I have ticket #1 to the SG Burlesque show in San Diego.
Sweet.
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nuria:
Yay for Elvis!!!!
acwildheart:
Not entirely sure how this connects but I split up with my last girlfriend over an argument about Elvis and Frank Sinatra at a karaoke night. Bit weird an' all that but then that's my life...
I'm drunk. Need sleep.
I'm drunk. Need sleep.
"the game of life is hard to play / i'm gonna lose it anyway / the losing card i'll someday lay / so this is all I have to say..."
Johnny Mandel: Suicide Is Painless
I am a horrible human being. Would anyone like to take me out to the back of the house and beat the shit out of me?
I have lost what...
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Johnny Mandel: Suicide Is Painless
I am a horrible human being. Would anyone like to take me out to the back of the house and beat the shit out of me?
I have lost what...
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finch:
woah.... what the fuck happened? what's wrong?
you're not a horrible human being at all and i certainly hope you don't really think that.
edit:
hmmmm. after poking around my friends list i now know what the journal was about. you do have somebody that you need to try and make amends too. i don't think you'll be able to, as she's rather unhappy with you and the entire situation, but you should probably try. at least i think you should.
i don't think anything less of you. people make mistakes. people fuck up. it happens.
[Edited on Jan 07, 2004 11:56AM]
you're not a horrible human being at all and i certainly hope you don't really think that.
edit:
hmmmm. after poking around my friends list i now know what the journal was about. you do have somebody that you need to try and make amends too. i don't think you'll be able to, as she's rather unhappy with you and the entire situation, but you should probably try. at least i think you should.
i don't think anything less of you. people make mistakes. people fuck up. it happens.
[Edited on Jan 07, 2004 11:56AM]
pureblu12225:
you are incredibly to hard on yourself ...snap out of it
on a lighter note when are you going to start stretching cause I'm itchin to go in
edited to say I like this pic much better than the last *cute dimple*
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on a lighter note when are you going to start stretching cause I'm itchin to go in
edited to say I like this pic much better than the last *cute dimple*
[Edited on Jan 08, 2004 2:16PM]
It amazes me how completely devoid of comfort I am. I can never offer any words of compassion to someone who is seeking it. Nor can I offer any of this comfort to myself. Im not sure when it was that I lost the ability to feel, but I apparently have.
I have a friend who has a problem. One that they looked to me...
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paige:
aww thank you so much
pureblu12225:
hey have you talked to JPEG he's got a room
Ive been hesitant to come to the conclusion of this memory. I enjoyed sharing it, and hoped that my message would get across accurately, but in my mind I was scared at the thought of having to describe what happened in the wake of my horrible decisions. I now have to admit my guilt and my shame to everyone, something Ive never really done before....
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leavemehere:
perhaps someday soon i will get to play with some again
we shall see
we shall see
gojason:
Hey D, what's up? Just wanted to drop a note and say goodbye on the SG front. My account ends tonight and I'm not renewing it. It was cool meeting you and I'd be up for hanging out anytime. Maybe you can give me the locals tour of CV and show me what I've been missing. Send me a mail if you ever want to hook up. Take Care - jason@gojason.com
And now we have part three of my story. Im sorry if it seems like its dragging on, but Ive been busy with Xmas and meeting new / cool people. And, truth be told, writing this puts me in a horribly depressed mood but I write it because I want to share.
So please do read this, and forgive me if you think its poorly...
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So please do read this, and forgive me if you think its poorly...
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silencenoir:
I'm back
Missed you guys too. How's your holiday going?
Anything new with you??
I'm gonna go back to reading your story now.
Missed you guys too. How's your holiday going?
Anything new with you??
I'm gonna go back to reading your story now.
unknowntrigram:
welcome to the BCB group
uummm
that is all
uummm
that is all
Here in lies part 2 of The Ballad of First Love. For anyone that managed to miss the first part, please see my previous post if you would like. And again, I apologize if this comes out sounding trite; Im not really a writer after all. Im just trying to convey an emotion with some memories.
And if you still feel like blaming someone, blame...
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And if you still feel like blaming someone, blame...
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gojason:
That's some good stuff there. Who would have thought this Sepultura listening, bad-ass looking boy from CV is actually a big emo-softy? That's supposed to be a complement. Your entries remind me a little of the way Douglas Coupland reminisces about similar life moments. Not in subject, but style. The subtle details you accentuate in your personal experience really invites the reading into the moment. Looking forward to your next entry. It was great meeting you last night. Had a blast. Thanks again for the perfect gift.
Your entries remind me a little of the way Douglas Coupland reminisces about similar life moments. Not in subject, but style. The subtle details you accentuate in your personal experience really invites the reading into the moment. Looking forward to your next entry. It was great meeting you last night. Had a blast. Thanks again for the perfect gift.
leavemehere:
what ever do you mean
i don't recall anything about a drink
but yes we should do something involving drinking
and you must inform me about the chula vista metal scene
i had no idea there was one
later sir
feel free to add me
i don't recall anything about a drink
but yes we should do something involving drinking
and you must inform me about the chula vista metal scene
i had no idea there was one
later sir
feel free to add me
"people are strange / when you're a stranger / faces seem ugly when you're alone / women seem wicked / when you're unwanted / streets are uneven when you're down"
-The Doors: People Are Strange
Ive been inspired by Kris7 and his latest journal entry. He has written a magnificent entry about a wholly personal subject, and I will try to follow suit. Im not...
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-The Doors: People Are Strange
Ive been inspired by Kris7 and his latest journal entry. He has written a magnificent entry about a wholly personal subject, and I will try to follow suit. Im not...
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kris7:
I already told you on IM, but what the fuck.......great story, well paced, bravely written. Good job. 
silencenoir:
Whoa that is one hell of a story. 
I'll be waiting to read the rest.
How are you doing?? done with the xmas shopping yet?
I'll be waiting to read the rest.
How are you doing?? done with the xmas shopping yet?
"you came to me with salvation / saying i must repent / you offer up your
redemption / a guarantee of a better life / in your safe world / your illusions
are comfort for your conscience / my sacrifices will be made / in honor of what is truly sacred...
how can you save me... when you can't save yourself?
...you can't save yourself...
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redemption / a guarantee of a better life / in your safe world / your illusions
are comfort for your conscience / my sacrifices will be made / in honor of what is truly sacred...
how can you save me... when you can't save yourself?
...you can't save yourself...
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xabluestarx:
you got lots of good karma for helping the old vijeta..
and yes i know i must have spelled that wrong.
and yes i know i must have spelled that wrong.
silencenoir:
I hate racism... pissed me off!! 
You know, I get the same thing done to me sometimes, because I am french speaking.
You know, I get the same thing done to me sometimes, because I am french speaking.
what makes you think everything in this world that you have can be taken
away / in a world this day, it's kill or be killed / i live each day like it might be my last / in this lifetime few things are worth fighting for...
my blood your honor everyone has a destiny
i'll choose my own
i will not be a victim!...
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away / in a world this day, it's kill or be killed / i live each day like it might be my last / in this lifetime few things are worth fighting for...
my blood your honor everyone has a destiny
i'll choose my own
i will not be a victim!...
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silencenoir:
Yeah, I'm alright.
Surgery was concerning women stuff. I don't like to go into details
I'm good to go and getting better everyday.
*sigh* while they were at it tho, they could have given me MORE cuteness ya know? haha.
How've you been?
*hugs*
Surgery was concerning women stuff. I don't like to go into details
I'm good to go and getting better everyday.
*sigh* while they were at it tho, they could have given me MORE cuteness ya know? haha.
How've you been?
*hugs*
nuria:
Yeah it's the one by Anderson. It's been really good so far but I'm barely into it, about 250 pages is all.
xoxo
xoxo
Fuck.
I've fucked shit up again. I had something good in my life and I fucked it up. I awlays do it. You'd think I'd be used to it by now, but I'm not. It hurts just as much as the first time. So I'll just go back to what makes me forget, and hope it finishes the job it started.
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acwildheart:
You and me both mate. You and me both. 
pureblu12225:
awww...*hug*
cheer up
check the sd group
cheer up
check the sd group
and see you guys tonight
I Love Tromaville, NJ
Don't give up the fight for truly independent cinnema!