mexicant

"you came to me with salvation / saying i must repent / you offer up your
redemption / a guarantee of a better life / in your safe world / your illusions
are comfort for your conscience / my sacrifices will be made / in honor of what is truly sacred...

how can you save me... when you can't save yourself?

...you can't save yourself..."

-Hatebreed: Empty Promises

I've been listening to Hatebreed a lot lately. Not entirely sure why, as I've always liked them but never really had thier CD's in heavy rotation. Well, I listened to this song a little while ago, and I'm forced to ask myself that question:

How can I save anyone if I can't save myself?

I know relationships are not about saving someone, but it sometimes feels like it is. And the question is not so much of salvation, as it is of emotions really. How can I expect anyone to emotionally open up to me if I can't do the same? Hmmm...

On a side note:

I went out to Ralph's today to buy some food and supplies. There was a nice little old Hispanic lady that seemed lost. I went up to her and asked her in spanish if everything was ok. She responded that she was looking for a certain isle and just couldn't find it. So I helped her find it and all was good.

Until I started to leave.

I said bye to her, and she thanked me for the help, but then I heard it.

Out of the corner of my ear, I heard, "Fucking beaners. Why can't they speak English?!"

I have never wanted to punch someone's skull in as much as I did then. And I wished that I could have found out who it was so I could have done just that.

Fucking racists. Always ruins my day!