so the dream from the Fourth of July....
it was odd...I wasn't sleeping too well, not sure why. perhaps nervous about work, who knows. lots of extroverting that day (in fact, Thursday, I was drained by the end of the day, and there wasn't too much going on). some of my family came over (mom's cousin Debbie, her 2 daughters, 2 sons-in-law, and 3 of...
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it was odd...I wasn't sleeping too well, not sure why. perhaps nervous about work, who knows. lots of extroverting that day (in fact, Thursday, I was drained by the end of the day, and there wasn't too much going on). some of my family came over (mom's cousin Debbie, her 2 daughters, 2 sons-in-law, and 3 of...
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so last night, let's see....what were some of the events?
found out that the new STL (if the one STL is correct) is a short Hispanic lady around my age (30's) who has not cut her hair really since she was a teenager....cool! this could be fun! told she's nice, too. I'm starting to like some of the changes to the store.
seriously, some really...
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found out that the new STL (if the one STL is correct) is a short Hispanic lady around my age (30's) who has not cut her hair really since she was a teenager....cool! this could be fun! told she's nice, too. I'm starting to like some of the changes to the store.
seriously, some really...
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miss_cellophane:
I wish I knew more cutie girlies. 
I hate nasty dreams.
I just gave kinny lots a cuddles. I bought him a new toy, a little butterfly thing
Your right, sometimes a week of nothing can be good. 
I hate nasty dreams.
I just gave kinny lots a cuddles. I bought him a new toy, a little butterfly thing
Your right, sometimes a week of nothing can be good.
miss_cellophane:
lol, agreed. And ones that dont turn out to be nasty backstabing jealous bitches too please? 
well, I was rejected by the Center for Youth for the job I applied for there. probably a good thing...I don't think I would have taken the job anyways....I really got the feeling I wouldn't be able to pay my bills for what they would have paid.
and getting a new STL soon....they're basically managers. her name is "Millie"....why do I picture her coming in...
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and getting a new STL soon....they're basically managers. her name is "Millie"....why do I picture her coming in...
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miss_cellophane:
wow, you have been busy!
I think Millie is a cute name
Yeah, I wasnt able to see when my account expired on the gift account. But im back now
So are you on hols at the moment? Just working? Are you going back to uni and graduating at the end of the year?
I think Millie is a cute name
Yeah, I wasnt able to see when my account expired on the gift account. But im back now
So are you on hols at the moment? Just working? Are you going back to uni and graduating at the end of the year?
stockholm:
yesss....fellow rochester person.
and the webpage is done. for those on my friends list, you can go back an entry or so and find the link. those not on my friends list that want to see, do a friend request. pretty easy, huh?
basically I have 2 webpages, one "personal" and one "professional". these past few days, I totally re-did the "professional" page, using Microsoft Publisher. there is...
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basically I have 2 webpages, one "personal" and one "professional". these past few days, I totally re-did the "professional" page, using Microsoft Publisher. there is...
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panini:
damn! for us here in housing, we just lost our director, grad assistant, and hall director. so one of our hall directors got double promoted to an associate director position since that person is replacing our director. craziness. so the interviews begin now!
miss_cellophane:
Thanks. I missed everyone here too.
I will also come back, probably tomojjow to comment in responce to your blog.
Thanks. I missed everyone here too.
I will also come back, probably tomojjow to comment in responce to your blog.
thanks for the feedback everyone. right now, my head hurts. kind of tired. get to work 11:30 PM to 8:00 AM tomorrow (Friday night to Saturday morning) and then the same shift again Saturday night to Sunday morning.
still no job...bummed about that.
not too much else to speak about.
click here to find out how last weekend went.
and Lennon is playing in Buffalo...
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still no job...bummed about that.
not too much else to speak about.
click here to find out how last weekend went.
and Lennon is playing in Buffalo...
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raleigh1:
hope you feel better soon, get some rest!
erragal:
rough, I have been going threw that also. hope everything works out better for you.
well, today, saw my dad for the first time since, well, um, October? talked a little about what was going on. giving him an edited version. here's why (long story short regarding my relationship with my father):
he left when I was 9 months 14 days old. given that I was born on March 11, doing the math, that means he left December 25. see,...
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he left when I was 9 months 14 days old. given that I was born on March 11, doing the math, that means he left December 25. see,...
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raleigh1:
Damn matches! 
well, thanks everyone for the feedback. after much thought and ideas, I've pretty much determined here is what I'm doing:
Friday: Interview, wearing a shirt and a tie. throw out my ideas on stuff. let them think about it. maybe send a thank-you note, depending. if they offer some nice benefits, like Student Loan forgiveness (say I work there a year and $10,000 is forgiven...
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Friday: Interview, wearing a shirt and a tie. throw out my ideas on stuff. let them think about it. maybe send a thank-you note, depending. if they offer some nice benefits, like Student Loan forgiveness (say I work there a year and $10,000 is forgiven...
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cuntrebecca:
No weekend plans...
Good luck with the jobs. The once with the furnished apartment sounds pretty good. Then you don't have to worry about rent, which is the usually the biggest bill.
Good luck with the jobs. The once with the furnished apartment sounds pretty good. Then you don't have to worry about rent, which is the usually the biggest bill.
so I'm still getting used to the new website layout and everything.....it seems to change every few months or so!
yeah, kind of annoying. oh well.
so what else? I just got a call today, I have a job interview on Friday. at the Center for Youth in Rochester, here is the job posting:
Job Posting
and now the problem....I would have to rent an...
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yeah, kind of annoying. oh well.
so what else? I just got a call today, I have a job interview on Friday. at the Center for Youth in Rochester, here is the job posting:
Job Posting
and now the problem....I would have to rent an...
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heavenandhell:
Not sure that you have many options really, maybe stretch the student loan, which although not ideal, will give you some breathing space.
Hope you are okay.
Hope you are okay.
fredricka:
My suggestion is; dont move to Oslo ! If you live a place where you can get a decent flat for $ 500 you're lucky in my eyes. I had to pay $ 2333 a month for my last flat, a small two rooms with barely enough space for me and my kid. Whats the wages like since this is such a problem?
so, today at work, I open the candy closet door, and notice seven "Shrek Snickers" boxes in the closet. interesting, since only the overnight cashiers work that candy....and I've been doing the overnights the past few nights (since Wednesday). let's see, I went home, they were not there, but when I came into work again they appeared!
so I asked the Night Crew chief (Night...
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so I asked the Night Crew chief (Night...
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miss_cellophane:
I wish some work people would just deal with their shit.
Puppies are so awesome Soooo cute!
Yeah, Im thinking friends with benefits would be the best option at t his point....but theres no one really suitable thats around in my life right now...
Puppies are so awesome
Soooo cute!
Yeah, Im thinking friends with benefits would be the best option at t his point....but theres no one really suitable thats around in my life right now...
heavenandhell:
Thankyou for the birthday wishes, you didn't need to worry, you were on time.
Seriously, what day is today?
you see, since Wednesday, I've been doing the Overnight shifts. the full-time person went on vacation to New Mexico, to return June 2nd. the person just trained for me, she was going to run the shifts. except on Wednesday, her father was in an accident that resulted in a head injury that required IMMEDIATE brain surgery. so she's been out...
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you see, since Wednesday, I've been doing the Overnight shifts. the full-time person went on vacation to New Mexico, to return June 2nd. the person just trained for me, she was going to run the shifts. except on Wednesday, her father was in an accident that resulted in a head injury that required IMMEDIATE brain surgery. so she's been out...
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cuntrebecca:
I have no reason to keep track of what day it is anymore. It's summer, no classes, and I'm so bored.
fredricka:
I changed my name because Fredricka is more like my real name; Fredrikke. Mirtzu just did'nt mean anything to me.
Too bad you're in a job you dont like. What kind of job are you looking for?
Yes, I'm getting more and more freedom. I sleep almost every third night in my new flat and not at the hospital. They say I'll be out by the middle of June.
Too bad you're in a job you dont like. What kind of job are you looking for?
Yes, I'm getting more and more freedom. I sleep almost every third night in my new flat and not at the hospital. They say I'll be out by the middle of June.
well, didn't win much gambling on Saturday (walked in with $50, given $25, walked out with $100). but it was somewhat fun!
and then Sunday was my cousin's son's 5th birthday party. seriously, the kid was excited to get underwear! everything got the "Yes, yes, this is what I always wanted!" treatment! so that was nice.
still job searching (damn, there is so little in...
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and then Sunday was my cousin's son's 5th birthday party. seriously, the kid was excited to get underwear! everything got the "Yes, yes, this is what I always wanted!" treatment! so that was nice.
still job searching (damn, there is so little in...
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miss_cellophane:
At least you came away with some sort of a win!
Job searching is incredibly hard. Not just because its tyring, but because your constantly facing rejections. Its okay to be bummed by it,... but I hope it doesnt get you down too much.
Well, I often hear it can take up to a month for some meds to become effective. Or fully effective. So I guess it might take a while. I hope the fogginess is gone shortly.
mmm, donut
Job searching is incredibly hard. Not just because its tyring, but because your constantly facing rejections. Its okay to be bummed by it,... but I hope it doesnt get you down too much.
Well, I often hear it can take up to a month for some meds to become effective. Or fully effective. So I guess it might take a while. I hope the fogginess is gone shortly.
mmm, donut
jermhawk:
GPS still won't match good old topo maps.
Where did you gamble?
Where did you gamble?
wow, well, been a while since I updated! I feel bad, I seem to keep putting this off. who knows why, really. I really don't know.
so what have I been up to? well, I'm done with the Lexapro (antidepressant I was on). working through the issues. it was kind of scary to look and realize that I lost about 5 people in my life...
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so what have I been up to? well, I'm done with the Lexapro (antidepressant I was on). working through the issues. it was kind of scary to look and realize that I lost about 5 people in my life...
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panini:
yay for new ink! and good job with your GPA!!!
miss_cellophane:
I have only had 3 people in my life pass away and I still dont know how to deal with it. Its such a hard thing, it feels so unatural to me.
The tattoos sound awesome I love it when the whole lot relates and reflects within all of the peices.
:| I hope your uni stuff works out. You have been so dedicated to it all.
Awwww.... Your so sweet. Im okay, really. Just working through my own stuff like you I guess. Feeling better again tho
Its just always been a thing with my family that Im the older one that looks after those who need it. Its something I have always really struggled with. You are right tho. I am slowly getting there, achieving my goals.
Have a good weekend sweets.
The tattoos sound awesome
I love it when the whole lot relates and reflects within all of the peices.
:| I hope your uni stuff works out. You have been so dedicated to it all.
Awwww....
Your so sweet. Im okay, really. Just working through my own stuff like you I guess. Feeling better again tho
Its just always been a thing with my family that Im the older one that looks after those who need it. Its something I have always really struggled with.
You are right tho. I am slowly getting there, achieving my goals.
Have a good weekend sweets.
I guess I am appreciating more, as I become more independant and able to lead my life the way I wish to. Thats not to say though that I dont feel upset or even depressed at some points, but I do try working towards a "happier" frame of mind, despite sometimes pressing times/ issues.
It seems to me that what you listed that makes you happy, is mostly from when you have positive results from your work (whatever that may be).... what about things just for you? There must be some things. Do you play any instuments? I thought I recalled you playing something, does that make you happy to an extent? Exercise (releases endorphins!!!).
Have you tried seeking out a life counselor/ careers counselor? Its something Im thinking of. To get some outside perspective. I feel like I need someone who has a larger understanding and knowledge base of other careers/ lifestyles.
You may be 31, but your still living your life. I understand it that were not automatically on a path, we have to make it. Figure out where you want and need to go. Whether thats in your own way or through the use of professionals/ non-professionals.