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Hey SG land!

Hope everyone survived the end of the world, I hear it was intense =p

I've been wondering for awhile what makes people say I'm so different from normal people. I know that my bipolar makes me constant hypo-manic as my base line, but I am only told very vague and general words as to how I'm different: high energy, loud, unique, different,...
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So, i'm not going to lie, taking these pictures have actually made me pretty uncomfortable. I knew i was over-weight, and i always clench and hold my abs in to not let my fat gut hang out.

But I'm starting the INSANITY workout tomorrow. I've done it before. It isn't the death that people claim it to be, even being over-weight and a heavy smoker...
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I had a very revelating dream last night. It is a type of dream I've had many times before that are from deep in my subconscious speaking to my conscious self. It started with having a weird slimy spandex like green layer on my body. I peeled it off in awe and confusion as to the sheer amount I had on my body and the...
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I figured out what has made me unstable like crazy(to put it midely) for 7 weeks-depakote. I didn't take it for the past 2 nights and I am a totally different person. I don't cycle, and i'm not even depressed(even after not being on an anti-depressent for 7+ weeks). It is such a relief, change, and revelation as to how I have changed in only...
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did a workout from hell.

glad to be back with blogging it's been awhile.

hey SG Land! i'm not going into rehab(thankfully) and it turns out my medication is so low in my blood stream(depakote should be at least 110 and i'm at 31 and lamictal is 3 when it should be 7). i'm rapid cycling but not too extreme but it still sucks. i really like posting video blogs, it's more personal and freshens up giant blocks of...
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My life is going to utter shit. I hate school, I hate pretty much everything. This society is going to hell and ruined with women dressing like whores and guys only wanting to to fuck women. I get to know the person, their weaknesses, fears, insecurities, desires, goals, and the whole personhood of someone. But even when it reaches that they act as if that...
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The state in which this world is heading is sickening. Maybe it's because it's Halloween, but it is more so than that. I see women dressed as whores,validating themselves purely by all the attention attracted from their legs,tits,or ass. And I view them as whores. I have a VERY high respect for women-i view them as LADIES first. But to see the exact opposite is...
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