I'm currently not really around like I want to be. It's mostly because my 12-year marriage with a longtime member of this site is ending. It's too hard at the moment to be here, reminded of the love he used to have for me. He's a different person now, and not for the better. I never dreamed that I'd become the villain that basically just breathes "wrong" and is a jerk or whatever. I know I need to mourn the loss of the person I used to love because he's certainly dead and not coming back.
All of those who knew both of us from here, I hate to say, but he's not who he used to be. Somewhere, at sometime anger and bad advice/people got to him as well as other unfortunate issues.
I will not be attending any of the SG shows in Colorado. Sorry for those who were looking forward to seeing me. I just can't be around that kind of thing at the moment. I hope you all have a good time and know I'm there in spirit.
I don't know when I will be ready to come back and share myself in a better light for you all, hopefully, it won't be too long. I just desperately need to gain my strength in myself back. I will probably be checking myself into some sort of program for depression because at this moment, I feel useless. I'm hurt and betrayed that it took just a tiny bit of manipulation to someone I love more than anything and myself to cast me out for no reason at all.
Hopefully, you all will be well and not forget to think of me or send love and positive vibes to me in my time of healing. It's time I focus on me. I always thought that was selfish, but it is needed.
For those of you who donated for prints, don't worry, you will get them. It's just super hard at the moment because of my circumstances, I literally have no idea where any of my stuff is. I've been broken down and defeated enough. I'm washing my hands of it all and grieving for my loss of that once amazing person I had by my side...
At the moment, the plan is for me to stay in Colorado for a bit, then see where my path leads me. I'm thinking eventually NYC or LA... leaning a little more toward LA, though. I think I have far more opportunities out there. We'll see.
But for now, love, luck, and lollipops to you all!
x0x0,
☠️-Sid-☠️
