sid

First off, I'm sending my deepest appologies to everyone who witnessed my last journal entry. I really did have a fun night last night, it was just the residual effects of my drunken buzz falling apart and slowly slipping to soberdom. It made things feel less fun when the absinthe wore off. But they were fun. I was just a little angry at myself for letting me be talked out of doing something I should have done, and for being a pussy. I gotta learn how to be more confident when it comes to certain things, and I gotta learn that I'm not in high school anymore and that I shouldn't worry as much as I did back then about talking to guys cause I am *NOT* as big as a loser as I used to be, and rejection isn't all that bad anymore. I mean, yea, it sucks, but it's not like I go to school with all these people and everyone will fucking know that I got denied again. Blah.

Anyway, last night's "Freak Show" night at the club was so much damn fun! I wore another corset I made, and went as a ringmaster (that sorta bordered on hooker... well, cause of the boots). I've been going to freak shows most of my life with my dad growing up. I've seen Jim Rose's Circus many times, but last night was the first time I had ever seen someone drill into their nose with an electric drill that was actually on! It was insane! Man, I wanna learn how to sword swallow and eat fire now. I wish I could be a Carny! Sad thing is, I am dead effing serious!

Well, here are the pictures of the second corset, as promised. I must tell you, this one is not as hardcore as the last one. It's only plastic boned, but the way it is structured, metal boning just would have been a huge waste. I am particularly fond of the tails on this corset.







and for those of you who'd care, here is a pic of my make-up from last night.



Now, I must get off my lazy ass and shower.

Oh yea, my birthday is the day after tomorrow.

x0x0,
Sid