realistic67

soz ive been anti social this week, hope every thing is good with you

Good for you! I totally support and encourage treating one's self to something lovely every so often.

(love the dinner jacket idea! I say do it!)

Thanks for the comments in the break up club group. You really dont know how much that helped!

actually i'm not on it for depression, and yes i am seeing a therapist.

Yeah that's me, the brunette. I've always been introverted and shy, social anxiety and everything, so I never go out and meet people. I hardly have any friends much less been in a serious relationship

It'll happen, some day. I'm in no hurry I've met a lot of great people through SG, I know I have it in me to make friends outside of the internet. That's the thing, I'm pretty different online than in real life. It's a lot easier for me to express myself on here. I've always had a fear of getting really close with people, so I've always pushed people away. I'm working on it.

Man, to hear you talk about your work -- it's hard to believe all of the work that goes into a production. Impressive...

thanks for the advice, ill have a think about it.

hope your shows going well

Way to generalize.

well, I don't think the guy will ever work for the local again. not only did he drop bricks, he dropped bricks and immediately took off and no one has heard from him since. fucking idiot.

I read your whole posting. I have had times in my life where my job is not that fullfilling. I learned over time it was up to me to make it better. I understand you're feeling underwhelmed by you new "spot" job. You even said you had ideas how to make the show more exciting and you felt you had more then enuff knowledge to do your job properly. Maybe you should get a good lighting plan together do some work and then present your idea to your superior. I have learned in my days in business there is a good way to go about this. It's callled a sandwich. Start off with good then go to bad then finish off with good.

So say to your boss the show is fun and good but you had some ideas that might make it even better then it allready is Just cuz its a show for kids doens't mean you have to go soft. You think Disney went soft? MacDonalds restaraunt goes soft? Matel toys goes soft? All because kids are their audience... Nope they went top dollar and full on in their attempt to please kids.

Now on the other hand Vancouver is in it's dreppression season. The weather, Lack of day light, constant rain, etc. It's the time of year to find things that we enjoy todistract us from mother natures attempt to depress us.

You said my Photo Hair thing was great to meet chicks. I put up with lots of shit from friends and family thinking I was gay or sumthing, but lil did they know I was just sneeking into the womans world for moments at a time to figure them out. I have had lots of fun and opportunity to meet women but to be honest my true love is for the art sake and not the booty but it is a bonus.

STR8 .

Funny thing about reading your posting is I was just talking to an actor friend of mine today who said many of the same things you did. The frustration, the lack of energy for things -- it's all cyclical, really. Not every show can float your boat, I suppose. I mean, the law of averages can't be helped some times. But from reading your journals and your profile you seem to be really into what you do and have had good successes in the past. If you need to make changes in your career, I say go for it ! Chase down that next creative project that feeds your soul!

thanks. I realised I was being a bit unnecessarily snarky, though. trying to stop that. on the internet at least!

missing shows my ass, you know damn well we still work when we're sick! Then the whole damn crew gets sick! It's like, teamwork or something!

Only a little more heart, sadly. There are a couple of fantastic songs, but the plot is so incredibly shallow and un-heartwrenching. You'd feel happy for the little orphan getting her break, if there were any build up. 10 minutes into the show she becomes rich little orphan annie. At least she's got a killer voice.

Interesting entry, i have never been much good at initiating relationships whilst drunk, or even at more than a couple of drinks.- and when i have- they were not great judgement calls.

as we get older i think maybe we are even less likely to be any good at it when drunk.

Maybe when us blokes get drunk we become boorish and testosrazone fuelled, talk about work too much.

Maybe after a few dates can we become drunk with a girl and be attractive- the opposite of being 16 and drunk maybe?

Never been much good at the dating thing full stop, I seem not to make a good first impression- in a potential boyfriend way, unless im working, when people see me work i seem to make a quite good impression, i have no idea why this is. but im usually to crap to follow that up properly.

im lucky at the moment, im not seeking dates or sex. Think it would take a woman to - pick my front door lock, get in to my bed naked before id be pushed to consider it.

Hope you find the woman of your desires- she maybe arty on the inside not the outside (e.g. clothes haircut) though?!

oh ive found being too nice/polite doesn't help! its my nature to be polite - but that only seems to impress or attract grannies. maybe work on your rough edges- make them rougher

well good job to ya.
i didn't start getting the nod from the old boys until i started working in the opera shop. now it's weird, they ask my advice on things (mostly carpentry stuff) witch is cool, so i take all the opera load ins now 'cause i can be acting crew chief without the nice pay but i like responsibility.
i don't know if it's so true for y'all up there in canada but here in minneapolis all the old boys are getting a little over weight so i affectionately refer to them as the big bellies.
peace