tell me. so what is new in candyland today? made bank at work today, that made me happy, and tired. got home at 12:00 passed out til 4:45. i hate opening, not a morning person, unless i am getting up early consistently. then i can do ok. i felt most alive on the night shift though, having an vampire-like aversion to sunlight is sexy. joe...
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tonight we are not going to talk about what i am thinking. there is much on my mind this night and it will be a small wonder if i sleep at all. an occupied mind often leads to lack of sleep, sadly. i open tomorrow, 4:45 am wake up call here i come. the best you can do at that time of the morning is...
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still craving yellow cake and chocolate frosting, love it. today was so boring at work that i wanted to remove my eyes with a melon baller, not really, but it sounded good. plus the words melon baller were on wheel of fortune this afternoon. no i am not am regular viewer. i don't work tomorrow, so i can stay up late like a dumbass and...
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looked at an apartment for me and the family, it was okay. not as big or pricey as the one at the villages at whiteman, but it was a reasonable price, and would meet our needs just fine. so hopefully that will come through. i think i just need to get out of this living situation, not to be mean or anything but it is...
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where to start...i got up at 11:30, went to work to see what the hell i'm working tomorrow, came home, went back to sleep until 2, ate pizza, did nothing, got ice cream with joey, came home, continued doing nothing. and once again i am alone this evening, suck. the little things that used to make me feel better, like shaving my legs, waxing my...
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i have a chunk missing out of right eyebrow, but i penciled it in and it looks ok now. it will be funny to me again when i take of my makeup later. can't even have a day without something going wrong (and no i'm not talking about my eyebrow). i just want a simple life, i want to what people say to be what...
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shobu:
That smail will look stuped and you may heat me for it, but I'm really not good at typeing what I'm thinking.
I've lived my whole life, not saying how I feel or how I think.
That smail will look stuped and you may heat me for it, but I'm really not good at typeing what I'm thinking.
I've lived my whole life, not saying how I feel or how I think.
shobu:
I've lived a life where I've not been able to say what I truely feel, or what I really think.
I have a mother who is Bipoler, a Father who is a Paranoid Scitsofrenic and Sister that is not my sister anymore, but is now my Brother.
So what I'm saying is I know how you feel, but I did not want to say it that way. It alway sounds stuped to me, when someone says they know how you feel. How in the hell does anyone know how anyone feels, half the time I don't know how I feel.
I have a mother who is Bipoler, a Father who is a Paranoid Scitsofrenic and Sister that is not my sister anymore, but is now my Brother.
So what I'm saying is I know how you feel, but I did not want to say it that way. It alway sounds stuped to me, when someone says they know how you feel. How in the hell does anyone know how anyone feels, half the time I don't know how I feel.
i'm running out of coke and the fruit punch i drink to cut my caffeine intake a little. there are cans everywhere! i so restless, and of course i am alone again this evening. mom's at work and i'd go watch tv over there just for the change of scenery but i'm too lazy to leave my house tonight. the world must come to me....
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its like a kick in the shin. my mood affects my work more than i thought. kick in the shin. how grateful am i? i'm going to start looking for a new job, such a team player. i must make more money than this. must. and i wanted a pb&j sandwich but the bread is moldy. and i thought i wanted mozzarella sticks, but i'm...
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so i've tried to say what i'm thinking and then i tried to not say what i'm thinking and then i said the opposite of what i think and it all is just too much. i can't convey anything properly. so there is that. wondrous mini-tantrum, i feel better, not as good as i could, but at least better than 10 seconds ago. so how...
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i really don't have anything to bitch about today, it was alright. i feel like i do a lot of bitching, those who read this probably do too. god, how can she be so miserable? i'm not miserable, just neurotic and half crazed. there is a difference. work was fine, made money, cleaned up, went home, standard. took a nap, slept for almost three hours,...
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shobu:
Hehe sounds like my days off over here. Get up have a sode, play online, take a nap, play online, go to bed 
you can have him, i don't want him anymore. it's like one of those lovely estate auctions that happens after someone dies. take him away, leave not a single piece it will do me no good to keep it around a second longer. and nothing helps, i still feel the same, but different in that the fire has gone out of it. the anger and...
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i tried so hard just to get through to you... and that's the way it goes, you know? so what do you do? give up on the wasted day, let go, go back to bed, abandon the project. yes. that is what you do. and you smile because everything has gone so far south that at least it can't possibly get any worse. and that...
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