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tell me. so what is new in candyland today? made bank at work today, that made me happy, and tired. got home at 12:00 passed out til 4:45. i hate opening, not a morning person, unless i am getting up early consistently. then i can do ok. i felt most alive on the night shift though, having an vampire-like aversion to sunlight is sexy. joe and i have agreed to try and make this crazy ass marriage work. here's hoping. i get to call around tomorrow and try to find a marriage counselor. that will be sweet. also planning of buying a new pet rodent tomorrow, already have a name picked out and everything, just havent decided on what species of rodent. definitely not a gerbil, i despise gerbils, my brother had one forever and a day ago that bit me on several occasions. so now our kind are mortal enemies. so yes, the new pet will be my personal mascot, whatever it happens to be. i love fruit snacks. my bedroom floor is littered with papers, half of them important, the other half is shit. i have a million notebooks and half written in journals. i tried to do a food journal one time so i would be more aware of my eating habits, that was a mistake. needless to say my eating habits are awful, no lie. it seems as though my new meds are actually working, i'm even, and feel like neither laughing uncontrollably or slamming my head into a wall. so that's good, maybe the timing of all this shit is a sign that things may actually get better from here. could be anything really. i have noticed an usual amount of anxiety as of late though, like i yet terribly nervous taking people's orders and shit, and i see these people every day so it's not like it's anything new. i may end up working for a couple hours tomorrow night, there is supposed to be a group of 20 or more that is descending on hometown to celebrate some lady's 63rd birthday. i don't know who the hell this lady is, but hopefully all will go smoothly. although normally when people say there will be a shit ton of people there often ends up being less than expected, i'm not impressed. i guess we will just section off the dining room for their group cause you can't really move some of the tables. oh well, that is tomorrow. as for tonight, i am bored. i really should keep cleaning my room, but the more i clean the more i seem to tear things up. it's a never ending project. i should start painting again, be nice to create something. i have been meaning to go out to the storage shed and get this book i started to read and never finished. i should do a lot of things. but you know how that goes. funny, ain't it?