Briefly talked to Virginia yesterday. Like a 2 minute conversation about paperwork concerning the refinance. It was cordial. So was the last time we spoke in person. Then she turned into a complete cunt via text the next morning. Sometimes I wish she would just show a little consistency. I have been freaking out about seeing her all morning. I'm still not sure when exactly it will be, probably next week or so at this rate, but it has me filled with an all consuming dread. I've been going over things in my head so much. Thinking about what I'm going to say to her. How I'm going to phrase it. Should I be sarcastic? Should I be angry? Should I call her a cunt or just tell her to go fuck herself? I want to get her out of my head, but I can't right now. I wish I could just learn to stop thinking. My life would be so much better if I could just do that.
Stop.
Fucking.
Thinking.
Stop.
Fucking.
Thinking.