modernleper

Virginia and I got married 2 years ago today. I'm not really feeling sad or depressed because of this "anniversary," but I still can't help thinking about it and it just makes me feel "weird." I know that's a horribly non-descriptive term for it, but it really is the most accurate. Everything feels off today, I'm kind of in a haze. I don't want to think about it, I have no real reason to think about it, but I can't not think about it. Should I just act like it is any other day? Should I feel sad that if things went differently I'd probably be on vacation right now with the woman I truly wanted to spend the rest of my life with? Should I be happy that things ended early rather than dragging on since (as everyone says) it was bound to happen sooner or later? All I know is that on May 25th, 2009 I got married on today, May 25th, 2011, I am alone. It's information that is there, that I can't ignore and that I don't know what to do with. There's no reason I should care about it, but it's like I feel like I have to. Two years ago today was the most important day of my life and it's weird to think that it has now been rendered so completely and utterly meaningless.