Monday Jan 26, 2004

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how bleak the future looks......

we had a plant wide meeting at work. they laid out the economic forecast.

i'll be lucky if i have a job in 2 years.

sometimes i regret controling my violent urges. sometimes i just want to cut loose on the world. make it fear me.

maybe i really am a monster


grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i'm angry and i don't know why...

tanx:
2 years is plenty of time to find a new job.

Sunday Jan 25, 2004

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sunday part II

appetite came back today. not sure what caused it's disappearance.

i did a web search for death notices/obits to see if my girlfreind killed herself. i ddin't find her name.

but still no word from her.

tanx:
mebbe she's waiting to hear from you

Sunday Jan 25, 2004

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to paraphrase johnny cash, " i wish that i was stoned there's nothing like a sunday to make a man feel alone"

i'm haunted. the voice and lyrics of the lead singer of the band evanescence won't leave me alone. that woman is gifted.


almost got crushed between 2 rolls of paper at work wednesday. one weighed 3000 lbs the other 7000 lbs. i had...
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yuriel:
eeek
heh scary man
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sad
peace out yo.
susannahjoy:
i appreciate your comments, it sounds great in theory, but wotn work for me.

Saturday Jan 24, 2004

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i once had an affair with a married woman.

after our first time together she told me she thought she was falling in love.

i told her that was something we couldn't afford to do.

after about 4 months of seeing each other when ever we could our views switched places.

well i thought it was love. ah the inexperience of youth.

sometimes i amaze...
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tanx:
yeah, its amazing how easily we can fool ourselves into the illusion of love.
doll_parts2727:
I agree with Tanx on this one


miao!!

Friday Jan 23, 2004

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a study on the history of social interaction amongst the aboriginal tribes of south-west lower michigan (or why a republican eunuch gets more girls than i do)


the events of the week have supplanted
my normal trip down memory lane this day.

still no word from my girlfriend. one of 4 things have happened
1) she is thinking about what i wrote seriously

2) she...
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rhoswen:
Hehe great motto, I know lots of guys with that motto and it seems to keep bits in the pants quite happy... confused
What was it that you wrote to your girlfriend? If you don't mind me asking?

Relationships can be tough, but it's better to be loved as you are rather than liked as who you aren't....if that makes any sense whatsoever

out for now

~R
rhoswen:
Where are you?
I've looking for you on chat and you haven't been there when I have....

~R

Friday Jan 23, 2004

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on top of not being able to sleep now i will be worrying for a friends safety.

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lightsneeze:
hey now! that's my very own sasquatchness going on there okay...haha smile
rhoswen:
That's not any good, I wish I were up late enough last night to help you or something...

Maybe tonight I'll talk with you a long long time and bore you to sleep?? I can always try miao!!

I get to work tomorrow too...that'll be great

Bye for now

~R

Thursday Jan 22, 2004

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oof! what a day at work. something in metabolisim musy have clicked from my weight loss. i was on crack/speed/meth

for 2 hours straight i was literally running in circles keeping the machine running. barely broke a sweat and wasn't tired. i'd say more abou it but i'd end up slaging a co-worker who is not the best one suited for the tasks we have...
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tanx:
way to go, im down one pound from yesterday! rapid weight loss!!

Thursday Jan 22, 2004

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continuing on yesterdays post:

the more i think about it it was a combination of things. from the ages of 13-16 my hormones went haywire (this being the period when i was most violent) my body was groing faster than my mind. i guess my effective teenage years extended into my 20's. after a few emotional meltdowns ( one is in an earlier post) i...
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tanx:
hey you got msn or any IM?
rhoswen:
See I'm behaving tonight...going to bed....gonna try to sleep...night

~R

Wednesday Jan 21, 2004

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sometimes i whish i had the social skills and confidence to function proprerly in society.

where does my shyness and social uneasiness stem from?

is it hardwired in the brain or is taught?



i was able to sleep a bit more last night.
or at least i don't remember waking up and looking at the clock as many times.
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rhoswen:
Ok this time I'm really leaving...if you're on again late don't let me stay up its almost 2am...night

~R biggrin
tanx:
Southwest michigan ppl gotta represent yo~! tongue

Tuesday Jan 20, 2004

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memory of the day..

he was downstairs watching porn with his buddy

she, i found, was upstairs on the their bed with her hand down her pants

now where would you prefer to be?

sitting on the edge of the bed watching her she asks me to help her get off


teasing and sucking on her breast ( i know how she likes it ,...
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_sarah_:
I do plan to ignore what you said.

People like you, who sit and complain and do nothing about it, are the reason people like him are in the White House.

If I don't go out and vote for the Democratic candidate, then Bush has one more vote in his favor, basically. Fuck that.

If everyone who hated Bush went out and voted on Election Day, he might actually lose, but people are happier whining and whimpering and saying their vote doesn't count, and then they bitch and bitch and bitch when the evil candidate wins.
tanx:
changing your eating habits can wreak havoc with your body chemistry.

Monday Jan 19, 2004

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*sigh* women.... sometimes i seriously
question my need to have them in my life. maybe i'll just keep then as friends at best enemies at worst.

i have to give my girlfriend an ultimatum.

change her situation by the end of the year or i break it off with her emotionally
and finacially.

i can't keep this up for much longer. almost 3 years is...
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tanx:
sometimes a relationship becomes a dependency. and keep in mind, that dependencies can work two ways.
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