Back in Boston... for a few days anyway.
Apple fucked me over. They charged me for next-day shipping, but shipped my computer regular shipping from China for some reason. The package still isn't in the country. I won't get it for another week.
Shit like this always happens to me. It's the story of my life. 
Quite frankly. I'm damn tired of it all.
My doctor gave me new happy pills. They make me feel sick, and I haven't been eating as much as usual. Which sucks cause I could stand to gain a few pounds, and believe me, I've been trying.
At least I have one thing in my life that makes me happy.
That's all I really need right now. As long as I got that, everything will be all right.
I look forward to wonderful, long nightly chats. I smile when text messages of sweet nothings appear on my phone. Like some magical spell, a warmth falls over me, and I don't feel so alone or so sad.
Alas, I am now bored. I shall waltz over to my bed and continue reading classic literature I've always meant to read, but never had the time to. I've been spending the past week off rotting on a couch, but at the same time stimulating my brain with my daily crossword puzzles and good reading. I sound like one of those nerdy kids that were pushed down in the mud in high school and were cheated off of constantly by the most moronic kids. It's not that I want to sound smart, it's just I've been so stressed lately, my brain has turned to mush. I am trying to salvage what is left of my sanity.
All in all... I still need that vacation.
x0x0,
Sid
Apple fucked me over. They charged me for next-day shipping, but shipped my computer regular shipping from China for some reason. The package still isn't in the country. I won't get it for another week.
Shit like this always happens to me. It's the story of my life. Quite frankly. I'm damn tired of it all.
My doctor gave me new happy pills. They make me feel sick, and I haven't been eating as much as usual. Which sucks cause I could stand to gain a few pounds, and believe me, I've been trying.
At least I have one thing in my life that makes me happy.
That's all I really need right now. As long as I got that, everything will be all right.
I look forward to wonderful, long nightly chats. I smile when text messages of sweet nothings appear on my phone. Like some magical spell, a warmth falls over me, and I don't feel so alone or so sad.
Alas, I am now bored. I shall waltz over to my bed and continue reading classic literature I've always meant to read, but never had the time to. I've been spending the past week off rotting on a couch, but at the same time stimulating my brain with my daily crossword puzzles and good reading. I sound like one of those nerdy kids that were pushed down in the mud in high school and were cheated off of constantly by the most moronic kids. It's not that I want to sound smart, it's just I've been so stressed lately, my brain has turned to mush. I am trying to salvage what is left of my sanity.
All in all... I still need that vacation.
x0x0,
Sid VIEW 26 of 26 COMMENTS
I took myself off the Joy pills due to rapid loss of weight (i was down to 112lb) and delirious evenings where i felt ultimately lost. I found the marvelous drug MDMA instead and it even filters out my anxiety.
I've decided to catch up on my reading too and this time it is the Enchanting Anne Rice who will take me through "The Witching Hour".