sid

days go by i'm hyponotized
i'm walking on a wire
i close my eyes and
fly out of my mind into the fire.
oh, watch the sky and hold on tight
the world is burining down
she's out there on her own and she's all right...

-one of those nights where song lyrics can describe my mood better than i can. funny how i am singing that very song for a final exam tomorrow night.

-i've come to the conclusion that someone is just playing cruel games with my head now. the sad thing is, i'm so used to it, that i'm completely apathetic to heartbreak and its emotions. i'm numb and not even saddened by this bullshit anymore. i guess with a history of being with assholes and liking guys who are the same will do that to you.

-this is the year of the unhappy sid. eight months now without a real smile. i am not giving my heart to anyone anymore. i will die alone and sad as previously determined. maybe i should go to a psychic, get a tarot reading and pay for the poor soul to lie to me and tell me happy things about my future.

x0x0,
Sid