sid

So I started to feel slightly better today, but then my lovely roommate decided to be an annoying bitch as usual. I came back from my first class, and seeing as it was a 9am, I figured I'd catch up on that thing called sleep I haven't been getting lately before my next class at 2. Just as I began to dose off, my roommate came back in the room after deciding that she didn't feel like going to class or work, both of which she hadden't been to since before spring break. She brought a few of her friends in whom she ignored while she talked loudly on the phone. Thus, sleep did not happen.

Plans for me going out, unfortunately, fell through today. So I got all clubbed out and tried to look cute for nothing. Oh well, it's not like I would have picked any guys up at the club anyway. I'm in dire need of hugs.

On top of everything, I am constantly reminded how effing lonely I really am, and I'm real tired of it. All I hear from my roommmates is "my boyfriend" and shit and my roommates' friends constantly speak of the new boy they kissed recently... a claim I cannot make as it's been months since anyone's lips have graced mine, and these girls are kissing 4 guys a week. It's stupid of me to miss having someone there, but I do. I just want to be loved, DAMMIT!

Why is it that everything is so damned complicated for me? It makes me wanna

Love,
Sid-Ness