sid

I'm so tired, so sick of everything getting screwed up. I'm tired of my mother still trying to control every aspect of my life, and constantly putting me down. She doesn't believe in me. Worst off, she doesn't believe a word I say to her. She thinks this whole modelling thing is just in my head. She thinks I won't amount to anything.

I'm tired of feeling alone and sad all the time. I just want to be happy again. Like things used to be when I actually had a sweet boy in my life... but this time I want it to last longer than a month or so... I feel like I'm in an endless struggle to make myself smile. I hate everything. I hate being this way. I just want to be happy...

I miss my Squee. It's times like this that I watch him spin webs around everything and crawl in and out of the toilet paper tube. At least he's safely being watched by Qui.

*growls* On that note, I'm going to attempt to sleep off some of my depression or whatever.

Love,
Sid