I've been experiencing lots of ups and downs lately.
I discovered the reason for many of the downs was my new medication for the pain resulting from my EDS. I had to stop it. It wasn't helping much anyway, and it was giving me hives. Awesome, huh?
Still no word on the job front. *sigh* I feel embarrassed when asking places if they're hiring. It's like "Hey, look at me! I have no job and haven't worked since October!" And I'm legally not allowed to talk about what I've done since then until June. Damn confidentiality contracts. *sigh* So I have this gap in my employment history that just makes me look bad, and no one wants to hire the "lazy" girl who didn't have a job.
Also, still no new car yet. We're still driving a rental that's gonna end up killing our bank account in the end. It's no fault of our own. We're waiting on other people to get our insurance check and we're still waiting on our accountant with out taxes. I really hate waiting for other people with stuff. It makes me too anxious.
I've also been battling some pretty severe self esteem issues. My face has broken out uncontrollably, my hair is a complete disaster that won't grow out of this weird phase, and I just feel generally "blah". I haven't left my house other to get mail in about a week. My only social interaction is my pets, sometimes Trevor (he's been working lots lately).
Yeah. Blah, blah, blah, I'm depressing. Fun, fun!
I guess it's just that time of the year... When my birthday looms closer and my allergies go nuts. All I ask for is a little bit of good luck! Here's to hoping!
x0x0,
Sid
I discovered the reason for many of the downs was my new medication for the pain resulting from my EDS. I had to stop it. It wasn't helping much anyway, and it was giving me hives. Awesome, huh?
Still no word on the job front. *sigh* I feel embarrassed when asking places if they're hiring. It's like "Hey, look at me! I have no job and haven't worked since October!" And I'm legally not allowed to talk about what I've done since then until June. Damn confidentiality contracts. *sigh* So I have this gap in my employment history that just makes me look bad, and no one wants to hire the "lazy" girl who didn't have a job.
Also, still no new car yet. We're still driving a rental that's gonna end up killing our bank account in the end. It's no fault of our own. We're waiting on other people to get our insurance check and we're still waiting on our accountant with out taxes. I really hate waiting for other people with stuff. It makes me too anxious.
I've also been battling some pretty severe self esteem issues. My face has broken out uncontrollably, my hair is a complete disaster that won't grow out of this weird phase, and I just feel generally "blah". I haven't left my house other to get mail in about a week. My only social interaction is my pets, sometimes Trevor (he's been working lots lately).
Yeah. Blah, blah, blah, I'm depressing. Fun, fun!
I guess it's just that time of the year... When my birthday looms closer and my allergies go nuts. All I ask for is a little bit of good luck! Here's to hoping!
x0x0,
Sid VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
hugodwarf:
I will when I get out of my appointment.
paulnikon:
I have been out of work since January of last year. Good luck.