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Certianly the apartment and moving woes are enough to get you down. I am having problems with that too, but they are actually WORSE than yours because I don't even have a place lined up and have to be outta here Friday. God, I hate Cambridge!

The other thing that might be bothering you, whether you know it or not, is a side effect of success on stage. When you're high up you worry about falling. When you're in the limelight it can change you, and there's nothing you can do about it. That's one of the reasons there's such a high suicide rate in entertainers. I didn't see the SG show in Providence so I have no idea how it went. Judging by reactions on here it seems to have been a success, but then again who knows what people REALLY think?

In my opinion, you probably need to do something that produces a concrete benefit. The problem with art, artists, and critics is that everything is so subjecting and you can easily start to doubt yourself. You need something the opposite... a puzzle or a game might suffice but something with an actual beneficial outcome would be better. Sometimes I just like to clean house or mow the lawn (if I still had a lawn) or even just clean junk files off my laptop makes me feel better. But I don't know enough about your life to tell you specifically what needs to be done.

I helped my friend Nicole (who you know) move the other day. It was a lot of work and I was hot and dusty with some cuts and scratches, but after going home and taking a bath I felt good because I had accomplised something. Of course that feeling didn't last but for a while it was nice.

Aw. *hugs* I think you are awesome. And you did great on Saturday night. I was so glad to see you! Sorry you can't make it Friday night, but maybe next time. I'll try and give more notice next time so everyone can make it.