today was interesting.
lavonne phoned me and woke me up. i proceeded to stay up, shower a bit, and read about the minoans, myceneans and egyptian tomb building. i had a nap with my cat. had coffee with ciircle and some of his friends. helped another friend move for about 5 hours. removed my septum piercing because it was crooked and i need to get it repierced (i miss it already, but i'm getting it redone in a week and a bit, when i get back from the hometown).
i got home from helping steve move and i just felt so unmoored. i don't know what it's all about. i went for a skate (with a nice bit of chainsmoking added in, to make me look more aggressive) to clear my head. some guy yelled said 'hey, nice ti--i mean...a--' and i turned around and screamed FUCK YOU ASS! GET SOME RESPECT! that let a lot of aggression out. but while i was skating, i guess just reflecting back on this crazy year i've had...
a year ago today, i shot my first rejected set with oryx. it was so much fun! it got rejected because it didn't have enough lighting. i took it out of my folders because people kept saying OMG! WHY DID YOUR SET GET REJECTED! and it was annoying, because i know exactly why it did.
a year ago tomorrow, i met some of the people who have had a huge hand in shaping me in the last year. i met weetzie, who is one of the best friends i've had in my short life. if i hadn't met her, i wouldn't have met ciircle. he's such a kind, sweet, wonderful guy and i love being around him. i can't say enough how much i'm looking forward to all the things we do together. we make eachother happy and that's the most anyone can ask for. to top it off, he's devastatingly handsome. i don't mean to be caught up in the physical aspect, but gee, he's nice to look at. and LOVELY to cuddle.
i met dire_romantic, who is one of the nicest guys i have ever had the pleasure of meeting. i'd met meanwhilethecat before but that night we connected and he had quite a hand in who i am now.--i learned a lot about myself as a result of our time together. i experienced a lot of things i'd never had the chance to (he introduced me to pocky and clove cigarettes). i want to emphasize though that my mind is on the future, not the past. as much as i'm pondering what's gone on and how it's shaped me, but using it to look at where i'm going with my life.
i think the past year has been one of the biggest for me as far as personal change is concerned. i've grown a lot. i am tougher times a million now. i don't look back on july 2004 rin as benig a wimp, but now i feel so strong. like i can deal with anything and come out relatively intact. i feel like i'm really coming into my adult self. i'm starting to be ok with being called an adult. i have better posture. i can skate like a madwoman. in general, i am more satisfied with how i present myself to the outside world.
and that's the peek inside rin's head this evening. it's mostly a muddle but really what sticks out is that i've been through quite a bit this past year and i'm happy with who i've come out as and where i am in my life. there are very few things i'd change, and they all revolve around someone else (like my dad--it'd be nice if he'd start talking to me again).
life is good. there's no one i'd rather be.
, kids. i'd like to hear about a period in your life that you feel really influenced who you are today.
lavonne phoned me and woke me up. i proceeded to stay up, shower a bit, and read about the minoans, myceneans and egyptian tomb building. i had a nap with my cat. had coffee with ciircle and some of his friends. helped another friend move for about 5 hours. removed my septum piercing because it was crooked and i need to get it repierced (i miss it already, but i'm getting it redone in a week and a bit, when i get back from the hometown).
i got home from helping steve move and i just felt so unmoored. i don't know what it's all about. i went for a skate (with a nice bit of chainsmoking added in, to make me look more aggressive) to clear my head. some guy yelled said 'hey, nice ti--i mean...a--' and i turned around and screamed FUCK YOU ASS! GET SOME RESPECT! that let a lot of aggression out. but while i was skating, i guess just reflecting back on this crazy year i've had...
a year ago today, i shot my first rejected set with oryx. it was so much fun! it got rejected because it didn't have enough lighting. i took it out of my folders because people kept saying OMG! WHY DID YOUR SET GET REJECTED! and it was annoying, because i know exactly why it did.
a year ago tomorrow, i met some of the people who have had a huge hand in shaping me in the last year. i met weetzie, who is one of the best friends i've had in my short life. if i hadn't met her, i wouldn't have met ciircle. he's such a kind, sweet, wonderful guy and i love being around him. i can't say enough how much i'm looking forward to all the things we do together. we make eachother happy and that's the most anyone can ask for. to top it off, he's devastatingly handsome. i don't mean to be caught up in the physical aspect, but gee, he's nice to look at. and LOVELY to cuddle.
i met dire_romantic, who is one of the nicest guys i have ever had the pleasure of meeting. i'd met meanwhilethecat before but that night we connected and he had quite a hand in who i am now.--i learned a lot about myself as a result of our time together. i experienced a lot of things i'd never had the chance to (he introduced me to pocky and clove cigarettes). i want to emphasize though that my mind is on the future, not the past. as much as i'm pondering what's gone on and how it's shaped me, but using it to look at where i'm going with my life.
i think the past year has been one of the biggest for me as far as personal change is concerned. i've grown a lot. i am tougher times a million now. i don't look back on july 2004 rin as benig a wimp, but now i feel so strong. like i can deal with anything and come out relatively intact. i feel like i'm really coming into my adult self. i'm starting to be ok with being called an adult. i have better posture. i can skate like a madwoman. in general, i am more satisfied with how i present myself to the outside world.
and that's the peek inside rin's head this evening. it's mostly a muddle but really what sticks out is that i've been through quite a bit this past year and i'm happy with who i've come out as and where i am in my life. there are very few things i'd change, and they all revolve around someone else (like my dad--it'd be nice if he'd start talking to me again).
life is good. there's no one i'd rather be.
, kids. i'd like to hear about a period in your life that you feel really influenced who you are today. VIEW 27 of 27 COMMENTS
Painting will probably be in a week or more. We want to get everything else done first, then see if we can scrape off some of the white paint and do some sanding. That will probably take awhile.
And as for having my shit together, I wouldn't say it goes that far. I'm just pretty thankful in general.