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i have so many things i want to write, but when i try to my hands just stop. there was a giant fire here that devastated most of southern california. it destroyed a large chunk of my family's land. my good friend's husband lost a team mate fighting the fire. losses all around. i wish i could tell you what went on this weekend+week, but...
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kris7:
Sorry to hear about your friends husbands team mate. I'm glad your okay.


As far as finding Lennon's music goes, I had a difficult time too. I got into her from a CD sampler a friend gave me. Her album "5:30 Saurday Morning" came out on the worst possible date...........9/11. Thus, the distribution got all fucked up; also Arista records never knew how to promote rock bands well. It took me a while, but I eventually found her ablum at a Newbury Comics (new England record/comicbook store chain).

She's got audio samples on her site www.lennonmurphy.com. Also, you can dl her new mp3 "Nothing Out of Me" off her upcoming album. If you catch her live on the current Girlz Garage tour, they are selling both 5:30 and her new otherwise only sold on internet acoustic album. Both are worth picking up. The acoustic album "Career Suicide", is great to listen when you're feeling down. Check it out.

Also, if you get to see her live, and if you see her hanging out afterwards, don't be shy. Go say hi to her, and she'll autograph your album if you ask. One of the coolest women I've EVER met in my life.
bleeder:
For sure bro. Sorry about whats going on....
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"Its a picture perfect evening and Im staring down the sun/Fully loaded deaf and dumb and done/Waiting for sedation to disconnect my head/Or any situation where Im better off then dead"

-Elliot Smith: Sweet Adeline


*Looks around to make sure no one is watching... Cleans out last post...*

Ok. I got a date with a stripper tomorrow. What the hell am I gonna do?...
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acwildheart:
Yup, that'd be me too. mad
silencenoir:
Whoa... how was the date with the stripper? c'mon all the details.

kiss
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"Its a picture perfect evening and Im staring down the sun/Fully loaded deaf and dumb and done/Waiting for sedation to disconnect my head/Or any situation where Im better off then dead"

-Elliot Smith: Sweet Adeline


God damnit. I was in the middle of beginning this post when my ex called me. I wanted to be her friend after the breakup, since we (a) were...
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"Stumbling into solitude/A clouded judgment day is fueled/Take me under your black wings/Mark my words and remember me."

Lamb of God: 11th Hour


Happy times yesterday!! Finally went to my cousin's studio to help out the recording of a new demo/mini-album. They kinda don't and kinda do need me there to help out. I help fix the problems that inevitably arise from using...
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jora:
I got two personal mentions in your journal???? What did I do to deserve that? biggrin Thanks for trying to get some extra love for me, in any case. Nice of you to think of me.

The singing sounds cool. I always wanted to be a singer, but I only got as far as high school choir and talent shows. frown I still sing for myself in the car though. LOL. I have a friend who wants me to sing at her wedding, but I could possibly die of stage-fright, so we'll see.

You "started drinking again"? Hmmm. Since you phrased it like this, I assume that it's been a problem in the past. Good luck drinking in moderation. I know I could never do that. It's sobriety or nothing for me. Just take care of yourself and I'm here if you ever need to talk (about it or anything else).

Have a lovely day. kiss
bleeder:
Thats awesome bro. You should start up another band. Sounds like its in your blood. Thats the way I feel. I love playing music.

'Texas Chainsaw Massacre' was pretty cool but, not as good as the first. That was a giving though eh?

Twins? *whew* tell your friend good luck. Im not sure if I could handle that either! eeek

Oh yea, yes I do have that song stuck in my head. Funny thing is thursday I was singing that song to one of my friends cause I know it annoys him to no ends!
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"Today and tomorrow have become...Become one/Every single thing has become none/Human nature is a beast/What I've done the most to show I have the least

Please don't leave me here/Please don't leave me here/Don't you leave me alone"


-Ben Harper: Alone

I'd like to start out this journal entry by asking you some questions...

Do you have a best friend? Do you have someone...
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silencenoir:
*shakes head* @ the ex calling thinking you were her new boyfriend. it's like......HELLO!!!!!!!!
whatever whatever

Yes, I am a web/graphic designer, you need to pay more attention to the profiles!! *grins and shakes paw*
No, really, I am just kidding... I don't always read everything either.
wink
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"Desde el fondo de la tierra/Mas alla de la existencia/Flotan almas solas/Todas crucificadas/Hombres y mujeres lloran/Por un amor que nunca tuvieron..."

-Caifanes: La Llorona


No update today. I'm too tired, drunk, and depressed. Think I'm just going to slip under the covers and sleep now.

Goodbye.
jora:
I like your new tattoo. How long did it take to do?

Why are you depressed? I was depressed this whole weekend and I hate it. All I did was mope and sleep (and pee the pup 50 million times!). So, spill it. What is going on with you?

Monday mornings suck ass. I am here all alone. My dept. co-wker is out today and I miss her. frown

There is no creamer for the coffee. What am I supposed to do????????

*Hugs*
silencenoir:
The job was a web design job. But they weren't totally clear when they posted the job offer. They were looking for a salesperson more than anything, and it's not my kinda job. So, I told them I wasn't interested. Oh, well, something else will turn up eventually. I still have a contract, so I'm not desperate.....yet.

how was your weekend? have some fun? What's made you depressed?

**big hugs** feel better.
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"I'm taking her home with me... all dressed in white / She's got everything I need... pharmacy keys / She's falling hard for me... I can see it in her eyes / She acts just like a nurse... with all the other guys"
- A Perfect Circle: The Nurse Who Loved Me


Damn strippers...

So I went to the club with my friends. One of...
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acwildheart:
Hey mate, cheers for the comment. That new tattoo looks excellent. Stay crazy. smile
bleeder:
I am totally digging that ink! That is nice bro. Did you come up with it? Mine is itching alot right now and it already healed. hmmm....
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"It feels like the light will never reach me here... I'm choking back my longing for shed tears... So strangulated by my lonesome fears... please don't worry too much, it only hurts when I breathe"
-Atreyu Someone's Standing On My Chest

Ok. Let me start off by saying I saw Kill Bill Vol 1 today. It was one of the best movies I hve seen...
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bleeder:
Oh man, kill bill is so fricking good! I love it. So happy birthday bro! 22 eh? Nice age. I would love to go back to that time. Maybe change a couple dumb decisions you know? So im guessing pretty soon here you should be heading to the strip club. Word of advice: Dont kiss the strippers!

Id have to say mans worst trait in my opinion is ignorance towards others. Its ugly I tell you. Whats up with the new mod? Details bro. smile
finch:
dude...Man's worst trait? how about Humanity's worst trait, my friend?

hi!
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I'm stupid. And Tired. But mainly stupid. And mainly tired.

Ugh. So my "friends" idea of consoling me is to get me drunk (and stoned). I'm really trying not to drink, but I just can't say no. More to come tomorrow, as I'm drunk. And tired. And stupid.

But mainly tired. puke
silencenoir:
kiss

edited to say : yes yes it was Thanksgiving yesterday wink

[Edited on Oct 14, 2003 10:25AM]
jora:
You just need a great big hug. It's frustrating that your friends don't respect you with the drinking/stoned thing. It's not good for you. Those kinds of things don't cheer someone up. It creates more depression.

I wish I could help you in some way. frown

Lots of hugs, love and kiss to you.
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So, I fell in love and had my heart broken this weekend. Here's the skinny:

I went to my Grandmother's house this weekend, around 12 pm. It's her birthday on Wednesday, but we decided to throw the party now since all of us work during the week and she lives in Mexico. So I went and had a fun time (and lotsa Carne Asada and...
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acwildheart:
Shit, that's bad man. Look on the bright side, could be that she's feeling the same about you and she DOES have your e-mail so y'never know. Anyway man, I really wish I could remember a bit more about my weekend - got very drunk, went to gig, drank Jagermeister, one of my mates fell off a hill which takes some doing. All good fun.
jora:
Just wanted to say hi. *HUG*
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Ok. So my friends are talking to me again. And oddly enough I have become an alarm clock for three of them. Allow me to explain a bit...

One friend has just moved back to her parent's house and can't find her alarm. So I have to call her at 6 am.

Another just had her electricity turned off because she is in the process...
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jora:
I don't think it was a suck-ass update either. So there. smile

Hope you have some good plans for the weekend. I have none, as usual, but that's ok. I vant to be ahhlone. I need to clean my apt. Since I got the dog, I haven't had time to do much housekeeping. Who knew that a small dog would take up so much of my time and energy?

Gotta go walk her now - again! - for the 4th time today. Goodnight. smile
ruby:
Well it sounds like you're helpful pretty much all the way around-
Nice to make your aquaintance.
smile
xox
Ruby
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Have you ever wanted to talk to someone? I mean really talk. Sit down, have a cup of tea, and discuss what it is in your life that has you down. Look at the other peson, and know that they understand? Or at the very least sympathize.

I did yesterday. I really wanted to talk to someone. Hear their voice, look them in the eyes,...
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jora:
I know exactly how you feel. I have all of two friends in my life and they are both clueness to the way my head and heart tick. I've known them all my life so they are really more like family, I guess. I long for someone to really connect with, but all I seem to find are shallow assholes. I am also tempted to grab the bottle of Vodka, but then I remember that I've been sober for 9+ years and I like it that way. I just want to feel better, you know? It's too bad that I'm not in SoCal. I'd drink loads of tea/coffee with you, and talk (and listen) your ear off.

You're not alone in feeling the way that you do, and even though I'm far away, I am hear for you to vent, talk or whatever.

*HUG*
kealli:
thank you for your post..

on another note.. if you pissed off your last friend ..
fix it.
"dont let the sun go down on your anger"
smile
~k