I've cried so much today, more than I can recall ever crying in one setting. I recently reconnected with an ex from my earlier school days. We've been talking nearly every day for several months now. Sometimes twice a day. Today, I said "fuck it" and started baring my heart to her. Bless her heart, she listened to me blubber on as I let out...
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It has been a bit since I last posted so lets share some good news! After a rough night at work, I arrived home and decided to go check my bank. To my surprise, my tax refund was already there and waiting. I wasn't expecting it for another week at least. So I called the company my vehicle financing is through to pay towards my...
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So I've noticed while intoxicated in various ways and to various stages that I generally seem to be a much different person. More like the person I think I want to be normally, without the help of anything else like a substance. Why? Why is it that I can't bring this forth without the help of something else chemically removing the barriers keeping it at...
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So here I am, another month gone much like this year now too. Not much new to tell. Still picking up pieces of my life, but I am finding new ways to fit them together again and balancing each other out instead of crashing down. I've managed to find some joy again, as well as the old fire that used to burn inside. It is...
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I've been absent a while. Work has been going strong (having been listed as "essential" during the whole pandemic thing) and rarely having a day off. Made things quite challenging to do much outside of the daily routine but I am finding my way around that again. Been finding new hobbies to pursue once life finds a new balance again, which brings me to my...
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I've been working A LOT since this Covid-19 stuff got rolling (working for a cracker production place being deemed "essential" lol) and doing almost as much soul searching to match. I've taken up shooting again (9mm pistol mainly, getting better every time!) and it has been profoundly relaxing for me. It has really opened me as a whole up to much of what I had...
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And yet, I am not done. Not by a long shot. Three months smoke free and still going strong. Still keeping up with the self-improvement in other areas too. Heck, I'm an out of shape guy with two left feet, and yet I was dancing around the apartment playing with the cat to the beat of Rise! by Santa Hates You (thank god no video...
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Well I meant to post a few months ago, hit writers block and never came back to finish it up. Oops.
I've now made it two months without a cigarette and feel great. I've been slowly decreasing my nicotine intake and will soon be ready to cut it out entirely.
Been working on furthering my learning from the HAM radio material and want to return...
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I've come to bring better news this time than the last post.
I have been in touch with a few amateur radio groups in my area after buying some HAM radios, and decided to pursue obtaining the entry level license associated with operating them. This came after frustration with work leading to the decision to buy the radios. The support from these groups has been...
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I've not posted much yet and aim to do that, following up with this. After my wife passed away almost 6 months ago, I felt so lost. Without going into too much detail, we were trying to work though our issues and rebuild our marriage when cancer stepped in and said time was up. We never settled things between us. We both had unfinished business...
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I've avoided interacting with others here and even posting anything personal for a while. I felt it wasn't appropriate with what's been going on in my life, felt it wouldn't be a good place to put it down as its not been positive in any way. The good parts in life being very few and far between and way too short, just a fleeting moment...
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