For the past few years my life has felt like it was missing something. One simple thing that kept a key peice of myself locked deep inside. Today I found that part of me again. I found my voice. I used to sing all the time, but after past events even when I did sing it was never my own song or my own voice....
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Yesterday my dad's computer totally went to hell. He was bummed cause that's his outlet, so to cheer him up I went out today and got him a new one as an early Bday present. Since I set it up for him he has yet to leave his chair XD.
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duckyfuzz:
Hehe, good work, man.
guardian_:
Haha, thanks everyone.
I was watching vampires suck with my family again today and one of the songs was stuck in my head. I started singing it in public and everyone thought I was nuts as me and my dad started laughing.
So here lately i've been working out every night and been trying to eat healthier and so far it's working. In a little less than a month i've lost 20 lbs and im starting to get back in shape. Instead of my familiy's usual midnight run to burger king for dinner i've been making home cooked meals for the past 2 weeks. The past 3...
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The past few weeks have been really tough for me. My father switches between a state of complete joy and then within a few hours everything is shattered. He's losing more of his memory every day. It's gotten to the point where he can barely remember either of my sisters' names. The thing that hurt the most is a little bit ago, because I have...
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I have decided on my next tattoos. Either at the end of october or early november I will be getting my dad's initails on the back of my left leg and my mom's initails on my right. Followed by that I will get "to forgive is to be a man" in russian across my chest . At the beginning of next year I plan on...
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gigondas:
Right on, my brother.
guardian_:
My coat of arms will basically look like this, but I just dont have a pic of the more detailed version lol.
My coat of arms will basically look like this, but I just dont have a pic of the more detailed version lol.
Walking down this road who knows who i'll meet.
Drifting past these people, our eyes never leave the street.
If you look into a stranger's eyes you get a glimpse of darkness.
If you look inside yourself you wonder how they'll harm us.
no on is a saint , but everyone's a sinner.
In this little game of life there can really be no winner....
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Drifting past these people, our eyes never leave the street.
If you look into a stranger's eyes you get a glimpse of darkness.
If you look inside yourself you wonder how they'll harm us.
no on is a saint , but everyone's a sinner.
In this little game of life there can really be no winner....
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I got a call at 5:54 in the afternoon.
telling me my little girl will never get the chance to bloom.
pneumonia set in way too deep.
so when she closed her gentle eyes she took the final sleep.
I began to weep, tears pouring out my eyes.
i couldnt say a word i felt so hypnotized.
I felt so alone with losing both you...
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telling me my little girl will never get the chance to bloom.
pneumonia set in way too deep.
so when she closed her gentle eyes she took the final sleep.
I began to weep, tears pouring out my eyes.
i couldnt say a word i felt so hypnotized.
I felt so alone with losing both you...
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Snow Angel
As the clouds part the snow hits the ground,
His little eyes open, his voice makes a sound.
My little snow angel so soft,so sweet.
A tear so gentle it falls down my cheek.
I cried so hard when I found out the news.
A little baby boy was born with the blues.
He wanted his mom,he wanted her near.
All he knew...
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As the clouds part the snow hits the ground,
His little eyes open, his voice makes a sound.
My little snow angel so soft,so sweet.
A tear so gentle it falls down my cheek.
I cried so hard when I found out the news.
A little baby boy was born with the blues.
He wanted his mom,he wanted her near.
All he knew...
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_indica:
Wow the first one is... so powerful. So intense and fluid. I love it, so much emotional force. Lovely.
The second is good also, but doesn't flow nearly so well as the first. My favorite lines were "sick to the bone,self medication is our new home".
All your writing is full of visual details, great writing. N your dead on with my poem, pretty much without love, i go back to my zombie state. You exist, just...its more like your just wandering around, like the living dead...
The second is good also, but doesn't flow nearly so well as the first. My favorite lines were "sick to the bone,self medication is our new home".
All your writing is full of visual details, great writing. N your dead on with my poem, pretty much without love, i go back to my zombie state. You exist, just...its more like your just wandering around, like the living dead...
_indica:
Wow, what a powerful reason to not change a poem. I agree, never alter it. N Im so sorry for your loss. words are failing me just now... i cant even imagine what you've been through.
I've been going somewhat insane off and on lately. My Bday was a good break from the insanity but now that im stuck back in the house again it is creeping back on me. I have to stay home to take care of my dad who is a disabled vet. He has gone into kidney failure 5 times in the past year and has black...
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Well my birthday was pretty awesome. Went to dinner, Hung out with some friends, Got drunk with the family, and then took turns getting tazed by my brother in law 
I was the only one not to fall on my ass and was able to keep walking XD
I was the only one not to fall on my ass and was able to keep walking XD
_indica:
Nice getting tazered for fun haha...thanks for the sweet comment on my blog...^.^ Things are looking a little better.... plus it rained today so that made me happy... HAPPY LATE BDAY!!!
guardian_:
You're welcome ^.^ and thank you for the Bday, I hope things keep looking better 
My birthday is coming up on the 25th and a good friend of mine has been planning something for me for months now, the only problem is my mom hates her with a passion...so now my mom is planning something as well just to try and spite my friend. what I forgot to mention to my mom is if she tries to pull something my...
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sickgirl78:
happy birthday, have fun whatever you wind up doing.