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ahh the pleasures of a good book! i just began Tipping the Velvet, and already i'm sighing happily with fantasies of Miss Kitty Butler! heehee
I had a lovely lunch today with Colette at a *cough* sports bar *lol*...who is lovelier than all loveliness(did i make you smile?)
Eh not too much to say now that theres hardly any drama in my life lately...but that's...
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colette:
New picture huh? Very photoshop dramatic miss thing!
I got to steal Tipping from her before she read it, it was fantastic, and then today I read on the publishers website (where it was fEATURED!) that BBC is doing a movie/tv show based on the book...MUST SEE!
volkov:
I remember you from the way back days. Where have you been? Or were you there the whole time and I just didn't know? so either welcome back or hello again! :-D

and the profile photo came out beautifully!
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today i feel like i'm drowning in a sea of medication! i have this doomed sense that because i am going to start going to therapy and i'm taking meds, that i'm now supposed to be happy and cheery all the time. granted, i do feel better..almost new...but i'm also worried. worried that i'm not allowed to have emotions anymore, to cry anymore, or to...
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destro:
stay up! ya can do anything ya put your mind to. hopefully i'll have time to stop and hang when we're a ATL. i'll send word closer to departure time, c-ya.
freyja__:
awww sweetie. first off, just remember that a 'normal life' involves everything.
feeling everything, anger, love, sadness, happiness.
don't let the 'shoulds' get a hold of you.
just be you.
i understand the struggle you are going through sexually.
it's not an easy place to be.
you are on the right track with not placing a label on yourself.
they can be so restricting.
especially at a time in your life when you are defining yourself.
go ahead girl, you're SO on the right track.
i am in a very similar situation as you are.
i am not married, but i have been with my boyfriend for 4 years.
i have a girlfriend that i've been with for 3.
it's hard when you have all these feelings inside, and have to remember to take someone else's feelings into consideration when acting upon your own feelings.
it's rough. honesty is the only way.
honest to you, honest to her, honest to him.

always remember to look at all the good things that have come of your life.
they are testament to your growth. as much as the bad things.

good for you, tho. TAKE THIS WORLD BY STORM.
that's exactly the attitude you should have.
live life on your terms.
do all the things you want to do.
speak your dreams out loud and they will come to you.

and DO come to NYC.
we'll have dinner. wink
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dear journal... i just arrived home after being away for four looong, trying, theraputic days. i've been dealing with depression for many years now off and on...it's been a tough battle, but i've finally accepted the fact that i needed help, and i'm getting better. on thursday night after a bad conversation i completely flipped my lid...i decided i didn't want to live anymore and...
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freyja__:
good for you, cutiepie.
i hope the meds work out for you.
sending you a little love from a stranger.
*lovelovelove*
xoxo
tryptamine_____:
i was just randomly surfing and ended up here, but i want to say that i'm glad to hear you're okay. i have had those times too, so i can empathize.
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hooray! i'm soo fucking happy right now! i had a job interview at 3...i think i might just have landed the job! woohoo! i might actually have money soon! smile AND i got another call today, so i have another interview for tomorrow morning! smile ahhh for the past two days, i've been stressed, worried, and sad...today just totally cheered me up.
joyrider:
congrats on the job! i still need one. ergh.

so, i saw that you wanted to know why i don't like piebald. they got overhyped to me by some friends and they just don't really grab me. i was just being obnoxious. don't pay attention.
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fucking god.. i don't think i've ever felt this hurt in all my life. i can't sleep, i can't eat, my stomach hurts, and my heart hurts. and i feel completely selfish for even feeling hurt! she is the one that is hurting...i shouldn't be allowed. but every other part of my body is telling me differently! if you don't understand what i'm talking about,...
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ghostina:
well, i guess everything is just dandy now...*sigh* supposedly.
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what do you do when your best friends boyfriend tries to give you a back massage when you are at their house alone? ok here's the deal...she's my best friend, i love her more than life itself probably...then theres the boyfriend...who i like a lot..only because of their relationship. i feel absolutely nothing towards him in any kind of sexual way...we've simply been pot smoking...
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ghostina:
ya see..that's the thing...he's a really nice guy. he was my friend..and it really upsets me that things are going to be really fucking weird now. not to mention i don't even know what she has decided to do yet...she hasn't called or emailed me. frown so it's been a very depressing day. i just want things to be ok again... *sigh*
ghostina:
i'm so sad. frown
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*sigh* i suppose i don't have too much of an update today... i pretty much went to school...we went on a fieldtrip to a major printing company to see firsthand the printing process from start to finish. it was pretty interesting! tomorrow evening i'm going to this WebGirls Summer Mixer...it's something for women in the communications and design industry i think. ANYway it should be...
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colette:
why are you such a beautiful freak? What were you thinking? Why would I think anything bad about you? You have not been a bad girl...lately. Don't be so silly. I still love you. And you WILL talk to people tomarrow, damn it!
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this had definately been a very trying weekend. *sigh* i had to go up to my parents house today...it wasn't so bad, it's just always a little annoying being around your mom and dad all day long. i did go swimming, however! smile friday night totally sucked though! i went to this burlesque show at the chamber in atlanta with colette...i was really looking forward to...
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martyr13:
hello to you fellow georgian, there are not so many of us here....but hey i am merely and hour and a half away from you...and i do sometimes hit the big city.

the next time i will be in atown...is the weakerthans show...
i think it is at the echo...but i am not sure..
i will warn you if you want to meet up with another suicide...
mark...
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weeee! so i applied for 4 graphic design jobs today! smile i hope i get a call or two back at least..that would be very cool. so...my big issue about not going to class...the situation just kept getting more and more out of control! it all came crashing to an end when my gf recieves a call at work wondering where the hell i am, and...
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colette:
oh my poor baby you drive me so crazy. Why why why why why? WE should go to the show tomarrow night...I am so stressed out. I stayed at the office till 7 today only to come home to do more work...but I came on here like you told me to, before I do my work...and I have to go into the office tomarrow before the bar work... *sigh*''

What pics did you send her? You are so beautiful..how can they be wrong?
emily:
I never did get to see any of your pics.....=(
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ahh well not too much to say right now...but anyone can feel free to wish me good luck right now...i need it! i might explain some other time. also...i'd like to add how much it means to me to have such a wonderful best friend...she really means the world to me, and i would never intentionally hurt her... if you read this colette/mimi (whatever haha)thank...
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*sigh* why is it so hard to love someone? but could it be that i'm just in love because it is someone unattainable? the only reason i'm able to go on each day is the hope that i could change, and that her feelings might change. but then doesn't that make me an evil bitch? it's not that i don't care about these other people...both...
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ghostina:
did you know that everything i say...usually means absolutely nothing to people? never.
elise:
hi there :-) i just wanted to say i was the one who took the whole set of myself on my digital camera just by holding it and snapping away!! but now that tatum has this digital cam with a timer, i won't have to do that ever again! and of course SHE can always take future sets of me wink and i get to take some of her.... i can't wait!!
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woooo i'm kinda drunk! i just got home from a night of drinking and karaoke fun w/ my little sis and my friend rebecca! smile i swear...i was soooo turned on by some of the girls there..whew... this one hot as hell blonde chick sang "fever" and "big spender"...ohmigod...i'm in love. *sigh* i almost creamed my pants! not to mention i had rebecca sitting next to...
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tryptamine_____:
wow, you just reminded me of my best friend heidi, who i've known for 6 years.

in other words, you rock. biggrin
tatum:
I still have to suggest that set to Elise, the poor little thing got a horrible migraine at work! I hope she's ok, I haven't talked to her since 5 frown

I'm sorry you girly got in trouble frown That's weird to bring that up so late like that! Sounds like you had an awesome time last night though!