She cant even look at me........its not my fault. It because she cant deal with what she did to me. So why does it hurt me that she cant look at me? I didn't do anything so why do I have to hurt? Why does it hurt me that she cant even face me???
These lyrics couldnt be more perfect...............
Is there really anyone there...
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These lyrics couldnt be more perfect...............
Is there really anyone there...
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I'm still here.....
Not a big surprise though. Death rarely comes to those who ask for it. Regained my ability to hate. I was beginning to think that it was lost forever. I function at a good 75% although the fires that once raged within me are still dead. She can't even look at me....her cowardice sickens me to the very core of my soul...
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Not a big surprise though. Death rarely comes to those who ask for it. Regained my ability to hate. I was beginning to think that it was lost forever. I function at a good 75% although the fires that once raged within me are still dead. She can't even look at me....her cowardice sickens me to the very core of my soul...
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I dont use this thing often but this will be an exception. After everything I did, all I said and showed it wasn;t enough.
Apparently it wasnt even deserving of a legit explanation. And to make matters even worse I was replaced by a walking pile of narrowminded southern baptist trash. So she can go and test the goddamned water. What the Hell am I...
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Apparently it wasnt even deserving of a legit explanation. And to make matters even worse I was replaced by a walking pile of narrowminded southern baptist trash. So she can go and test the goddamned water. What the Hell am I...
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This is a late one I know but what the Hell ever. After what seemed like an eternity of absolute Hell, the young NBK emerges victorious. Of course not without help though. As bleak as it all appeared to be I kept fighting. I dont know if I was just stubborn (Aries tend to be that way) or maybe its 'cause I believe that the...
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Just when it was starting to look up..........everything went crashing back down to the deepest region of Hell. For the past 8 months I had been in 'fuck it' mode. I cared not what would happen to me. Now I stand at a crossroad. i may very well lose the very thing that brings me true happiness. Each second that passes brings a little more...
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Sweet mother of the Abyss........I actually got a comment from a SG 
Nothing major, but......wow. This is completely unexpected. To be honest I'm quite honored and very flattered.. Many thanx to the lovely Syndel. But enough of that.....time for update. Being stuck in this skin prison is actually getting better. Struggling to save cash to buy the BloodRayne statue (IT WILL BE MINE!!!!) Found out...
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Nothing major, but......wow. This is completely unexpected. To be honest I'm quite honored and very flattered.. Many thanx to the lovely Syndel. But enough of that.....time for update. Being stuck in this skin prison is actually getting better. Struggling to save cash to buy the BloodRayne statue (IT WILL BE MINE!!!!) Found out... Read More
Another shit day. Gas is so ridiculously expensive that I can only afford to go to work and school. Damn prejudice bush and the rest of the goddamned world. Hopefully this is just the first sign of the zombie apocalypse. Forgive me if I sound like I'm complaining. I actually hate complainers. These types of people have no idea just much suffering they could be...
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I suppose I should use this journal for venting purposes.... Its not like I expect anyone to read it any way. Perhaps I'll just make this litte spot on SG my random musings area.......Hopefully I'll have a pic that is post worthy in the very near future.........