Beyond the Grave
Indelibly I drank deep the presence of her.
Drugged up, a drunk, *hic*-up the patter of my beating heart
All down to the curled toes, writhing rich in fertile loam.
My heart's cacophony, a dirge for a life left lived
Eulogized in my head,
I went out how I wanted:
I remembered my eyes finding her there in the cold light of...
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Indelibly I drank deep the presence of her.
Drugged up, a drunk, *hic*-up the patter of my beating heart
All down to the curled toes, writhing rich in fertile loam.
My heart's cacophony, a dirge for a life left lived
Eulogized in my head,
I went out how I wanted:
I remembered my eyes finding her there in the cold light of...
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sydni:
Well then. I'm going to have to have sex with my boyfriend now. Gee thanks. 
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ms_magdalena:
And you as well, my dear! I pulled your autographed playing card out of my purse the next day and giggled. What a night!
twinkie:
Your facial hair is the stuff of legend.
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it_thing_hard_on:
A friend of mine suggested going to some of these workshops on account of the fact I thought of maybe doing some stand-up. What say you, do you see it helping with something like that?
gayballs:
HEy, that rules.
and sounds incredibly difficult.
and sounds incredibly difficult.
I am driven in life by the discomfort that I feel within a moment. Discomfort acts as an indicator, in most cases, that I have reached a precipice. A moment where I have comprehended an end condition, but have not found the thoughts, actions, or confidence in both to reach it.
In most cases, when in control of my faculties, my brain interprets my body's...
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In most cases, when in control of my faculties, my brain interprets my body's...
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sydni:
I hope it goes well! Break kneecaps!
teddy__kgb:
hmm?? interesting.
It might be presumptuous to say that I am doing Bad Improv but it is really starting to feel like it. This is actually positive because previously I was doing Worse Improv.
At the start I was not emotional invested in my performances. It was about having fun. I was there to play games. Simply understanding the rules of the game were enough to warrant...
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At the start I was not emotional invested in my performances. It was about having fun. I was there to play games. Simply understanding the rules of the game were enough to warrant...
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it_thing_hard_on:
It was very....interesting meeting you last night. You're quite the character.
remj:
I totally thought it started at 8:30. And checking my calendar says 7. Sorry that I'm a moron when it comes to my crazy Sunday schedule.
I sometimes play a game while I'm walking alone. I will close my eyes while continuing down the street and see how far I can make it before I open my eyes again. I try to trust my memory of the surroundings and the put trust in my other senses. I never get very far before I find myself with my eyes cracked slightly or...
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sydni:
Tonight I'll be dancing at the Rendezvous (Belltown, Seattle) with a live band, at 8pm.....Come check it out!
xoxo
Sydni
PS: you should read Eckhart Tolle Books. I think they'd be of interest to you.
xoxo
Sydni
PS: you should read Eckhart Tolle Books. I think they'd be of interest to you.
elisabeth:
I was just reading this and found it very informative.
Why, I had no idea that it was the atomic number of nitrogen, for example. Learn something new every day, it seems.
Why, I had no idea that it was the atomic number of nitrogen, for example. Learn something new every day, it seems.
gayballs:
wow. talk about wishing i had been somewhere
I am often lulled asleep by the immensity of the details which weigh heavy on my life. It is in this ebb that I am nearly unreachable in an intellectual sense.
A particular document was suggested to me that I had wholly ignored for a number of months. The gravity of the material, as it was described to me, did not seem relevant at that...
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A particular document was suggested to me that I had wholly ignored for a number of months. The gravity of the material, as it was described to me, did not seem relevant at that...
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jonnyjonnyh:
For me, handling the future is the hardest part. .That being said, I tend to find that taking care of the present at least makes dealing the future a tad bit easier.
The past is a whole new ball of wax. You have to deal with it and not ignore it. Writing, meditation, whatever. It just needs to be handled. You obviously do a lot of your processing through writing. And it's an excellent avenue for contemplative thought.
The past is a whole new ball of wax. You have to deal with it and not ignore it. Writing, meditation, whatever. It just needs to be handled. You obviously do a lot of your processing through writing. And it's an excellent avenue for contemplative thought.
mrdeity:
Thanks for the advice and info on the consoles.
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teddy__kgb:
yeah. sorry for the dramatic good-bye. i found some $$$, and am back for a year. woo hoo.
trevallion:
You win!
But I really do have blisters on my fingers.
But I really do have blisters on my fingers.
X. Fighting for one's sense of self
In my youth, manic depression was explained to me, at best, as someone prone to "episodes" every two years. They were the equivalent of a modern day werewolf. Losing all control of their mental faculties, sociopaths, they would move through society committing base sexual acts, engaging in rampant spending, and violently attacking those that stood in their way....
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In my youth, manic depression was explained to me, at best, as someone prone to "episodes" every two years. They were the equivalent of a modern day werewolf. Losing all control of their mental faculties, sociopaths, they would move through society committing base sexual acts, engaging in rampant spending, and violently attacking those that stood in their way....
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shal:
I never know what to say after reading your journals, but I just wanted you to know that someone is reading them and finds them interesting.
teddy__kgb:
hasta la vista, senior. good luck with the writing.