~i'm in much better spirits.
~my to do list is actually shrinking.
~i feel like there's actually a hope of us getting ahead financially.
~we're actually COMFORTABLE at his parents'!
~i looove having a dishwasher, and a vcr, and dinner before ten at night!
~i get along with his mom way better than mine.
~it's a nice place to live. actually exactly how i wanted...
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~my to do list is actually shrinking.
~i feel like there's actually a hope of us getting ahead financially.
~we're actually COMFORTABLE at his parents'!
~i looove having a dishwasher, and a vcr, and dinner before ten at night!
~i get along with his mom way better than mine.
~it's a nice place to live. actually exactly how i wanted...
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i can't believe i was so tired i wrote 'parent's' instead of 'parents' in my last entry.
this is the first morning i've woken up and not felt like i wanted to cry because my eyes were open in quite awhile.
moving has been a really overwhelming process for us. i hope it taught us a nice lesson and we will try harder to do...
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this is the first morning i've woken up and not felt like i wanted to cry because my eyes were open in quite awhile.
moving has been a really overwhelming process for us. i hope it taught us a nice lesson and we will try harder to do...
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m_bethany:
wow. a list of things to do.
did you do all of that shit?!?!?
did you do all of that shit?!?!?
nattytattat:
I've got a good cleansing...actually a couple of them, and the beach...for at least 8 more days 
we're moving in with shawn's parent's today.
it's going to be ok.
it's a time to start over.
it's going to be ok.
it's a time to start over.
8stars:
so wait, was that you at whitneys last friday?
nattytattat:
I just got your message today! I was very wasted yesterday and the night ended in watching porn since we were too poor to go to the strip club.....no substitution really
And I ran into the guy who gave me the bar job interview on Wednesday...he remembered my name immediately although he seemed a little shnockered too and I talked to him for a little while and he was trying to get me to go home with him.....I'm not sure if that is good sign for getting hired or not.... ha ha
But yes! Let's hang out soon! Once again, I have all the time in the world right now.
And I ran into the guy who gave me the bar job interview on Wednesday...he remembered my name immediately although he seemed a little shnockered too and I talked to him for a little while and he was trying to get me to go home with him.....I'm not sure if that is good sign for getting hired or not.... ha ha
But yes! Let's hang out soon! Once again, I have all the time in the world right now.
Well, I'm feeling a lot better.
Last night my PLP came over and that raised my spirits instantly. I love that girl. As soon as I'm with her I can completely be myself--I don't have that with anyone else in the world, though I'm working on it. She gives me hope and reminds me how far we've come.
Then I saw Ashleigh and held Baby...
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Last night my PLP came over and that raised my spirits instantly. I love that girl. As soon as I'm with her I can completely be myself--I don't have that with anyone else in the world, though I'm working on it. She gives me hope and reminds me how far we've come.
Then I saw Ashleigh and held Baby...
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nattytattat:
Once again.....I'm right there with ya..except for the hairy bathroom thing! Eww is right! Come sleep on my couch bitch!
nattytattat:
We can job hunt and apartment hunt and be hungry unemployed losers together....
UGH.
~I have to be out of my house in two days.
~I have nowhere to move yet, and no money to move.
~I have last and this month's car payment due.
~I have no insurance yet, but I have to go to court soon for an insurance ticket.
~I haven't made it to court (I was supposed to go last week) for another ticket...
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~I have to be out of my house in two days.
~I have nowhere to move yet, and no money to move.
~I have last and this month's car payment due.
~I have no insurance yet, but I have to go to court soon for an insurance ticket.
~I haven't made it to court (I was supposed to go last week) for another ticket...
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fotojenyk:
hope things start turning for the better... soon! wishing you all the best luck
ace:
sorry things arent going great... but youre super hot.. ihope that makes you feel a little better...
have any of you found the balance between living in the moment and planning for success in the future?
i'd love to be further enlightened.
i've just finished chopra's spontanious fulfillment of desire. loved it. everything explained so simply. i'm going to give those exercises a go.
i have been more and more introspective and introverted, to the point of ignoring 'real life' around...
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i'd love to be further enlightened.
i've just finished chopra's spontanious fulfillment of desire. loved it. everything explained so simply. i'm going to give those exercises a go.
i have been more and more introspective and introverted, to the point of ignoring 'real life' around...
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scheisskopf:
I get new words I suddenly start having a hard time with, and it won't go away. Spelling was always the thing I was best at, too. Weird.
You are already a butterfly, dear.
**Will be in San Diego this wknd for the trade show-- any hotel recommendations?
You are already a butterfly, dear.
**Will be in San Diego this wknd for the trade show-- any hotel recommendations?
nattytattat:
I've been the opposite in the same way. I've been such an extrovert lately that I feel like I haven't gotten shit done, and I'm losing touch with myself. Balance is hard...especially when you live at the beach
too much to do to update now, but it will happen.
likwid_todd:
heh heh heh. don't get me wrong. the event was the best indoor/outdoor venue i've been to in cali. i was let down by how talked up the whole the was by my friends and it wasn't anywhere near as good as they made it out to be.
as for the bubblegummers... ...nothing is more annoying than highschool kids that can't handle their high. furthermore, when the people who are with the kids who are out of their mind aren't watching out for them they get pinched by the cops and fuck up everybody's time around them. i hate bad friends. be a candy raver if you want to. i've been a raver (noncandy) for about 11 years now and i've been a DJ for about 5. i am into the music and the scene more than you'll ever know. BUT, when i see thugs fighting at events that they shouldn't even be at, it pisses me off. a rave, especially one of this caliber, shouldn't have a bad vibe. this one did. i was let down in that respect as well. maybe the scene has changed. maybe it's full of people who have never heard of any of the DJs. maybe it's full of people who listen to electronic music because that's the cool thing to do. maybe it's full of people who don't like the music unless their high. if so, the scene has let me down. (san diego especially)
i've partied all over the US, Europe, and the Pacific. never have i been to a place with so many gangsta' wannabes who are trying to be hard.
now in Nocturnals' defense:
- i was impressed with the DJ line up.
- i met a lot of really cool people.
- i appreciate the fact that it was even held, good and bad issues alike.
- find another event of that magnitude in our area. nothing comes to mind.
just because i found some faults (in my opinion) with the venue does mean i'm not into the music or the scene. i have such high expectations for the music and the people because i want them to be as passionate about it as i am.
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as for the bubblegummers... ...nothing is more annoying than highschool kids that can't handle their high. furthermore, when the people who are with the kids who are out of their mind aren't watching out for them they get pinched by the cops and fuck up everybody's time around them. i hate bad friends. be a candy raver if you want to. i've been a raver (noncandy) for about 11 years now and i've been a DJ for about 5. i am into the music and the scene more than you'll ever know. BUT, when i see thugs fighting at events that they shouldn't even be at, it pisses me off. a rave, especially one of this caliber, shouldn't have a bad vibe. this one did. i was let down in that respect as well. maybe the scene has changed. maybe it's full of people who have never heard of any of the DJs. maybe it's full of people who listen to electronic music because that's the cool thing to do. maybe it's full of people who don't like the music unless their high. if so, the scene has let me down. (san diego especially)
i've partied all over the US, Europe, and the Pacific. never have i been to a place with so many gangsta' wannabes who are trying to be hard.
now in Nocturnals' defense:
- i was impressed with the DJ line up.
- i met a lot of really cool people.
- i appreciate the fact that it was even held, good and bad issues alike.
- find another event of that magnitude in our area. nothing comes to mind.
just because i found some faults (in my opinion) with the venue does mean i'm not into the music or the scene. i have such high expectations for the music and the people because i want them to be as passionate about it as i am.
[Edited on Sep 07, 2005 9:32PM]
likwid_todd:
sweet. 
nocturnal was awesome.
nattytattat:
hey sorry i missed you yesterday! i guess i was a little sleepier than i thought 
likwid_todd:
glad you liked it. i had fun as well. there were tons-o-people. even if i had met you before there was no way i would have ran into you guys there. lots of young kids though.
ewwww i hate my roommates even more every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
17 more days, 17 more days...shit i better get a new house to move in to hadn't i!
oh well. it's not entirely my fault that i had severe poison ivy for an entire week before putting two and two together and doing the righ things to get rid of it.
this is my third week...
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17 more days, 17 more days...shit i better get a new house to move in to hadn't i!
oh well. it's not entirely my fault that i had severe poison ivy for an entire week before putting two and two together and doing the righ things to get rid of it.
this is my third week...
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tatpunkgurl13:
piercings seem to hurt me more then tats.....
likwid_todd:
hope to see you there!
for the past week i have been hiding out in my air conditioned room.
it started monday with sweating like a pig coz it's been close to 100 here and we ain't used to that! plus i have no air conditioning in my leather-interior car.
then we went to the beach and got drunk, came home and passed out without a shower.
woke up the...
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it started monday with sweating like a pig coz it's been close to 100 here and we ain't used to that! plus i have no air conditioning in my leather-interior car.
then we went to the beach and got drunk, came home and passed out without a shower.
woke up the...
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likwid_todd:
sweet. i'll be coming from the river so i'll be leaving in the morning. hopefully i can check into my hotel early. i can't wait.
highresolution:
that shit sounded crazy. glad your getting rid of it.
just chuck a paper bag over your head. no-one will know who you are.
just chuck a paper bag over your head. no-one will know who you are.
dammit, dammit dammit.
i always think i have things figured out.
then the perfectly arranged tray i'm holding gets knocked into the air and i'm left to create a new vision.
do you guys know how hard it is to have to look for a job when you don't want a job to begin with and you're starting school in a month anyway so what's...
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i always think i have things figured out.
then the perfectly arranged tray i'm holding gets knocked into the air and i'm left to create a new vision.
do you guys know how hard it is to have to look for a job when you don't want a job to begin with and you're starting school in a month anyway so what's...
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nattytattat:
Come live with me. Just think....the beach is right there! ...But only til Oct 1st. We're looking for a house too. We should be neighbors!
What are you going to be studying? Yeah, jobs suck...especially when you were looking forward to some quality (absolutely) free time...take it from me, that is my life right now. My tray is also getting fucked with...but I figure, what the hell, enjoy the ride, enjoy the change of pace. Once you start to get where you planned to get, life can get boring and you can enjoy the "mishaps". Hang in there, call me next time you go to the beach...I want you to see that video! You're so cute in it!
What are you going to be studying? Yeah, jobs suck...especially when you were looking forward to some quality (absolutely) free time...take it from me, that is my life right now. My tray is also getting fucked with...but I figure, what the hell, enjoy the ride, enjoy the change of pace. Once you start to get where you planned to get, life can get boring and you can enjoy the "mishaps". Hang in there, call me next time you go to the beach...I want you to see that video! You're so cute in it!
so, yes.
i am enjoying this great irony.
the one where the best parts of our lives begin at the end of our comfort zones.
the part where we request change of the universe, and it delivers.
new living situation---the one i've wanted all along---me and shawn, just us.
of course that brings new stresses---but these can all be released and replaced with new enthusiasm...
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i am enjoying this great irony.
the one where the best parts of our lives begin at the end of our comfort zones.
the part where we request change of the universe, and it delivers.
new living situation---the one i've wanted all along---me and shawn, just us.
of course that brings new stresses---but these can all be released and replaced with new enthusiasm...
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llona:
your ideas are all good. i also think a gift certificate for pregnancy massage is great- there are so many aches and discomforts toward the end of pregnancy.
are you guys throwing her a blessingway?
are you guys throwing her a blessingway?
sophie:
your new living situation and your new job are such wonderful blessings. i'm totally stoked for you!
go you, go you, it's yer birthday, get yer groove on.
too dope. just too dope.
go you, go you, it's yer birthday, get yer groove on.
too dope. just too dope.