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i can't believe i was so tired i wrote 'parent's' instead of 'parents' in my last entry.

this is the first morning i've woken up and not felt like i wanted to cry because my eyes were open in quite awhile.

moving has been a really overwhelming process for us. i hope it taught us a nice lesson and we will try harder to do things as ahead of time as possible.

how in the hell did we get all this junk??
how can we feel like we have nothing and then haul a huge u-haul of shit to storage, then another over to his parents' lawn, and still have another at the old house waiting for the dump?

my back is killing me. i've been sleeping on a foam pad on the floor for the past two years, mmm kay? this bed gives me no support.

i cannot fucking wait to do yoga for the first time in weeks! and we have a vcr now so i can do buns of steel! yes! i have over a month before monster massive and halloween- my ass is gonna be showin!

i'm enjoying a nice hot cup o tea. ahhh, it's all about the soothing right now. i keep subconsciously wondering when we're going back home.

i have no idea how i'm gonna get in school soon and no idea how we're gonna survive financially while i'm there, but i don't fucking care anymore. i have to do it.

i must get a new 'bible'
i have been increasingly more depressed since it disappeared, as opposed to increasingly uplifted while studying it daily.

i have so much to do!
today, i have to:
~clean the bathroom (i have a neurosis, i can't take a shower in or sit on a toilet that i haven't personally cleaned yet)
~organize all the piles of shit in our room and clean it, set up the dvd and cover the couch
~take a shower and do all my little skin routines
~do a shit ton of laundry, including all of our bedding
~yoga (i have to figure out how to do this on a concrete floor )
~get utilities turned off and addresses changed
~put my truck in the paper (YES! we are actually selling old bootsy!)
~give myself a much needed manicure and pedicure
~call my PLP
~help move some of the pile into storage and to the dump
~make myself eat
~maybe even go out tonight? !

also, this week i wanna:
~get together for a girlie/faggy night of hair and waxing
~make an appointment for a long-awaited brazilian
~figure out our bills and call debtors
~wash my car again
~see if our foam is dry and get shawn to move it in and the bed out. or something
~clean the inside of my car
~move more shit, haul more shit to the dump
~go to the red sea and dance at least once
~get a job
~go to the beach
~figure out a good cleansing fast to go on--a couple days, nothin too crazy
~get some primal defense (aka shit-o-matic)

yah so i guess i better finish this shit and get off my ass!