so I've basically done nada - not even indoor things I could've... and probably should've... been doing.
*shrugs* bad me ?
I hate to admit but this entire summer I've been "feeling my age," as the old(er) folk say, when I *do* have the chance to do something I am weirdly lacking the energy, incentive, and desire to do so...
'course, I kinda admitted that, I think, in my last posting, that feeling of weariness and whathaveyou.
yeh, I'm in my 40s ( believe it or not ) - and no longer being mistaken for being in my 20s ( go figure! )
I'll be in my early 50s when my lovely li'l spawnlings graduate... *Oi!* scary thought, that !
what's so strange to think about and consider, though, is that at my age my fathre was still a lunatic drunk who, along with my mothre, were always out and doing things
they were active as hell at the age I am now, working multiple jobs and hanging out with friends/neighbours or having friends/neighbours over all the time
hells, I'm 3yrs younger than my fathre was when he was out in Desert Shield/Desert Storm !!
there was probably an advantage with my fathre & mothre in that they were childhood sweethearts who did nearly everything together their entire life and befriended couples that did the same and had siblings and cousins that got together often
( even if they did have a questionably crazy son [me] that around that time was already working and already being excluded from familial and other get-togethers )
comparably 3 of my 4 relationships I were in the decade of my 20s - none of which lasted longer than 40days in a row
my 4th I was in my 30s - the one I married and had my daughters with - and we never dated, let alone did more than eat in the same location on rare occasions
...I actually had a laugh with the ex recently where we're both kinda weirded out how we've done more together since divorcing and actually get along as friends, which we never did as a couple !
and before anyone gets any sickly ideas in their skulls, NO, there is zero chance we'd ever get back together...
there's zero love there - other than the mutual love for our girls - but we're thankfully different enough and strangely can work together as friends
YET people always seem to be surprised when it comes to me...
people assume I'm hanging out with friends - if not in a relationship - all the time when I'm not at work ( since they never hear me talking about doing anything like they do )
one of the managers just discovered that the vacation trips I've taken have all been alone ( excepting the one with my fathre in January ) - got the weirdest look on that one
co-workers and the rare friends I talk to are weirdly in disbelief when I mention I've only had 4 relationships since HS, that my first kiss was at 18 ( let alone anything further than that when I was 21 )...
it's as if it's assumed that because of what they see and that I appear happy, that I must either be in a relationship or be a serial dater *laughs*
gods - if only! *laughs*
and, no, *I* am not the least bit surprised - it's not as if I'm out looking...
yes, I AM on dating sites, but as I've spoke about those before - the ones I'm on a good friend had put me on ( RIP Poni )... and she even got her money back from paid dating sites that had "gauranteed" dates
she admitted she was just trying to get me laid *smirks*, but nope, nada, nothin'
hells, just recently a friend saw my profile on POF ( the only site I still have a password for, so I update it now and again and check it out every couple weeks )
they messaged me saying that they were surprised that it had me listed as "does not respond"
'course, I had 'remind' her how tough it is to respond when I don't receive anything to respond TO... and I'm surprised the site is set up that way *shrugs*
but people on sites have told me that's the 'best free site' out there now - unless I want to pay...
sorry, kids, but if I'm gonna pay for a dating site, I might as well pay for a date - and I'm pretty sure that's still illegal ;)
ANYways... methinks I'm staring to sound like some depressive here with these last couple posts
no, I'm not - I love life and my daughters and my job... I'm just, well, bored, actually...
and as the weather gets cooler and it becomes painful to even be outside, I know the boredom will continue
thankfully I have DVDs/bluRay/netflix/hulu/etc. - as well as different sites where I drive people nuts - to keep me from going bat-shit bored, neh ?
much love, my lovelies and gentlefolk... stay sane :)
from the first book of twittage to the uncaring ::
8/20 :
ok... that's interesting - the town's siren went off... only for a couple secs - *oops* moment or quick test of the system in this storm ?
8/24 :
placed first delivery order with HyVee online for tomorrow after work... definitely easier than walking and carrying bags for 15-20mins :)
8/24 II :
"What'cha doin' after work tonight?"
Watching A Good Old Fashioned Orgy
**blank stare**
The movie...
**blinks**
8/24 III :
according to the ex, it sounds like my eldest is enjoying her meet with the teachers and meeting new friends on her b'day today *smirks*
8/26 :
State Fair? only with others, sorry, not walking thru bad neighbourhood to where I was attacked/robbed for 6$ bus - nor paying a 60$ taxi!
8/27 :
I can honestly say that being annoyed by today's weather ( thus far ) I've done nothing but watch the entire Ash Vs Evil Dead 1st season :)
8/27 (part of a posting) :
why are graves even necessary ?
it's not as if your bodies are going to come in handy at any point in the future ( hells, there are times where graveyards have actually been a severe hindrance - poisoning water supplies, for example )
and just think - it'll essentially be a safety service when the zombie apocalypse happens when there's nothing TO zombify !
8/28 :
portion of an online 'argument' :
"[...] and religion deserves fedral [sic] & state funds"
so each of the 30,000+ belief systems and sects recognized in the US will get equal funding
"no theres [sic] only 1 true belief!"
so each of the 10,000 'one true religions' and their sects recognized in the US will get equal funding ?
"I'm sick of [your] bullshit"
I'm guessing then that you mean that only YOUR particular sect of your belief system should be the one getting funding ?
[ and they ended the conversation - surprise, surprise ]
watched recently :
via netflix/hulu:
New Girl (1st Season)
Scream Queens (1st Season)
Dogtooth
The Tick (2016)
Doctor Who (random 10th & 11th Doctor episodes)
Chubbies
Odd Thomas
ownedflix:
Epic
Spacehunter: Adventures In The Forbidden Zone
Guardians Of The Galaxy
Battlestar Galactica (1st Season)
A Good Old Fashioned Orgy
22 Jump Street
Ash Vs Evil Dead (1st Season)
The Angry Birds Movie
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose
unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.