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Haters vs. My "Bullshit" Life

*laughs* I so love humans/humanity sometimes...
on two different fronts I've basically been told my life is bullshit
(well, I should say, that what I've said/mentioned about my life is bullshit - same thing)

so, let's see... my bullshit life [please take note of the excessive sarcasm] :

I've had a bad heart my entire life and am unable to run. Yeppers, must be b.s.
I've had head damage in a car accident in '96 and further in an attack/robbery in '08. Yep, must be b.s.
Both head damage incidents led to memory loss, particularly the accident in '96 in which I lost all memory prior to being 15 and portions of it between 15 and 18. Oh, yeah - has to be bullshit.
I've broken both my wrists and they've gotten to the point where my wrist movement has become somewhat limited and they make crackling noises. Gotta be b.s.
When I was younger I was "stabbed" by a broken metal bar by people chasing me. Has to be b.s.
I used to help show horses as well as volunteered at WEfest and various metal concerts/shows. Has to be bullshit.
I'd written over 5,000 poems by the mid-'90s and've probably doubled or tripled it by now. S'gotta be b.s.
I know and have known several models, artists, musicians, and other demn good talented people. Yep, b.s. all around.
I have several severe food and dairy allergies... of COURSE that must be b.s., after all, I must eat like a g-d with wheat and corn and (most) dairy and etc., etc.
I have no car, nor a celphone, nor cable, nor luxuries other than a computer, DVDs, and CDs. Must be b.s.
I pay half my paycheck (after taxes) to child support. Yep, has to be b.s.
I live where I live because it's the cheapest place within walking distance to work. Can't possibly be true, must be b.s.
I have two entertaining, intelligence, creative daughters from my ex-wife. Wow, that's two things that must be b.s.
I've only been with four people in my life, only one of which lasted longer than 40days each time (which was the ex-wife). I've got to be a bullshitter.
I can't afford a doctor and haven't been to one in years other than emergency room or urgent care visits in many, many years. Has to be bullshit 'cuz EVERYone is insured and goes to a doctor at least yearly.
Every year since I've been 15 I've known at least one person, personally, who's died a year - the "record" being either 12 or 15 (I can't remember which) just a couple years ago. Good gods, do I wish that WAS b.s.!
I grow facial hair fast enough where if I shave in the AM, I'm severely scruffy by afternoon. Yep, gotta be b.s.
I lost my older sister in '01 and my mothre died in '09 of cancer. S'gotta be b.s. as well.
I've witnessed two people take their last breaths... an ex-g/f when I was 15 and my mothre in '09. Has to be bullshit.
I managed several hotels throughout Minnesota while in my 20's and earlier, never making more than 7$ an hour. Yeppers, must be b.s. as well.
I save roughly 20-30$ a month, which I save until/unless I need it or have enough saved that I can risk spending some. Gotta be bullshit.

Good gods... do I really need to go on?

I guess my life is bullshit?!


Funny thing, though, is I LOVE my life and enjoy the hell out of it and other than the many deaths in my life, I wouldn't change an f'n thing - it led me to where I am and I f'n LIKE it here!
Seriously, my life is what it is at least in part because of the above - therefore it must be b.s.? *smirks* OK, if they say so - after all, they must've been there... right? Right?

if people want to consider it b.s., then they're obviously individuals with issues that I need to either ignore or, if they're in my life, push 'em the hell out.
To them I say : "Hate all you want, come back when your balls drop and have a taste of my life sometime and then cry bullshit all you like."

- thom / Wolfox