Shifting?!?
a quick "forgives" - I just realized I've been in odd moods, of late (no, not "moody," just... odd)...
I'm weeks (if not months) behind in the webcomics I frequent, I've posted little to nothing blog-wise, I've been watching very few DVDs (which means my TVs been off, as that's the only reason I turn it on as I now check the weather & news online), I've written only a handful of poems this past year, my cravings have been messin' with me (one week I'll be craving sugary substances, the next chips, the next meat *shrugs*), I've drawn basically nothing except what my girls have asked me to (when they ask me to), I've even only bought CDs with me to work maybe a total of 6 days this month.
I'm not depressed - hells, I still feel my usual happy-as-hell enjoying-life self *ponders*. I don't feel bored or in need of distraction, other than the usual. yeh, my "muse" is at zero-level but I haven't even felt the urge to draw or write so that hasn't been a hindrance of late.
it's almost as if I'm "shifting" again... but I can't tell what kind of "shift" it is this time, or even if it IS a "shift." last time I "shifted" it was definately a good thing, but that was - good gods - 23yrs ago?! and as bad as my memory is, it didn't feel like this. this feeling is more of a ... null. as if I don't actually need anything but simply... am.
and that's not normal for me.
weirdness.
maybe it's just a temporary ...whatever it is/may be.
it just seems that I haven't been doing the things I usually do - and there's many things I tend to do, at that, that I simply... haven't.
hrm.
-t.
a quick "forgives" - I just realized I've been in odd moods, of late (no, not "moody," just... odd)...
I'm weeks (if not months) behind in the webcomics I frequent, I've posted little to nothing blog-wise, I've been watching very few DVDs (which means my TVs been off, as that's the only reason I turn it on as I now check the weather & news online), I've written only a handful of poems this past year, my cravings have been messin' with me (one week I'll be craving sugary substances, the next chips, the next meat *shrugs*), I've drawn basically nothing except what my girls have asked me to (when they ask me to), I've even only bought CDs with me to work maybe a total of 6 days this month.
I'm not depressed - hells, I still feel my usual happy-as-hell enjoying-life self *ponders*. I don't feel bored or in need of distraction, other than the usual. yeh, my "muse" is at zero-level but I haven't even felt the urge to draw or write so that hasn't been a hindrance of late.
it's almost as if I'm "shifting" again... but I can't tell what kind of "shift" it is this time, or even if it IS a "shift." last time I "shifted" it was definately a good thing, but that was - good gods - 23yrs ago?! and as bad as my memory is, it didn't feel like this. this feeling is more of a ... null. as if I don't actually need anything but simply... am.
and that's not normal for me.
weirdness.
maybe it's just a temporary ...whatever it is/may be.
it just seems that I haven't been doing the things I usually do - and there's many things I tend to do, at that, that I simply... haven't.
hrm.
-t.