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Happy Birthday 2 U!

So adorable!! Congrats, Aunt V.

Snice. Suits you.

So that's what I've been doing wrong!! When I have a bad day I go home and have a drink (or two or so) or go get a massage. Damn, I need to go get a piercing or a tat!

Some people are cut out for college and some aren't. And I don't mean smarts, cause I know you're damned smart, but just the whole college schtick. Starting out in the real world might be a motivator that helps you have a better perspective on what you really want from a college experience and what you need to go forward with your life. That will keep you motivated because now you have a goal and this is going to get you there. Hell, I went straight into college from HS and didn't have a clue what I wanted to do with my life. I had an okay understanding of the real world, but not completely. I ended up with a business degree that is completely useless to me now, except for the fact that I have a degree (since I'm doing computer work).

That said, not everyone has to go to college, but it's pretty much like having a HS diploma was 30 years ago. So definitely much more necessary to get where you want to go. You are taking a scenic route, and while it might take you longer to get there, I think you will get more from your experience, appreciate it more, than those friends who went immediately to college.

Don't worry that you have fucked up. It's not a fuck up. It's taking your own road and getting where you need to be when you need to get there. College is still there for you as an option.

Deep breath, let it out, and it's all good now. See, all you need is a plan.

I know what you mean about disillusionment with life and where you're at-- I'm kinda going through the same thing right now. I'm nearly 26 and it seems like anyone who did anything noteworthy and historic in their lives was at least in their profession by now. I barely even have a job.

Schiavona is onto something-- it's good to have a plan.

The best piece of advice I got recently is that in life you either fulfil a role (being a great mum, being an inspiration to people, etc.) or you aim for a goal (making a million before you're 40). Basically goals are something you do and roles are something you are along the way. Pick a role or a goal and then figure out what you need to do to get there. Your role or goal doesn't have to include college. If it's not for you, don't kill yourself to live out someone else's dream or idea of what your life should be like. Fuck it.

It's like the bit in Fight Club where Brad Pitt threatens the guy in the convenience store who wants to be a vet. Decide what you want to do and set yourself a time limit for the first step, whatever that is-- college, getting a new job, getting advice, etc. A marathon is made of a million steps.

What an absolutely adorable toaster. And a great boy too. Definitely the perfect boy.

Nothing bad is going to happen! It's great that things are going so well...and if "little" bad things come along, don't let them bring you down.
I am hating the cold weather. The worst things about winter: shaving your legs--it grows right back when you get cold (I bought an electric razor, haha, so I don't have to shave in the shower), sitting down on a leather car seat and having your shirt pull up and your bare back skin touch freezing leather....ouch! I would be so happy living in a tropical climate...if not for the huge spiders. I'd rather be cold than be around those.

i feel you on that...for every good thing that happens to me ten bad things happen.

reaaall dumb. but cute. hooray for bright silver lettering

Oooo, cool. I want to come and check it out! Maybe you could call in TAPS and have them investigate! I think your roommate's g/f should shower there. I mean, give the poor ghost a break and show it some boobies!

Be careful Sweetie! Klonopin + ETOH... well you know that.

Yikes. Careful sweetie.

ooh i was in LOVE with HWP when I was in high school. i actually wrote "human" an e-mail to give to Aimee at one point. I got a reply from Aimee a few days later and almost pissed myself in excitement!
Turns out "human" was/is Aimee's mom. Who knew? After that initial e-mail we (aimee & i) became friends.
I never got to see HWP live but have been to almost every theSTART show they played in NYC.

its always fun to run into other people who love hwp. one night in spain is probably one of my favorite songs of all time.

Sweetie, I'm so sorry about this week sucking. I'd take it away if I could. Growing up, I was actually fairly insulated from most bad stuff by my parents. I kinda have mixed feelings about that because on one hand it lead to a fairly care-free childhood, but on the other it didn't harden me as much as I would have liked for the real world. I'm easily hurt, and easily saddened. But, I have huge amounts of love to share around because it always makes me feel a little better when I can help someone else out. I'd say I would make a great counselors or something like that, but I'm easily overwhelmed by too much sadness. **shrug** Thankfully I an easily able to empathize with people, understand their sitch, and be there for them if they need it.

Mostly though, I hope you are doing better, and that the weekend bring MUCH happiness your way! Or I'll kick it's butt!

working out when you're pissed is the best shit ever