i feel like i'm drowning in my own body. like it's too big and it's just suffucating me. i cant breathe, i cant move, and i cant even cry out for help. it's like it's this seperate entity that masks who i really am from everyone else. so they see my body, but they cant see me dying inside of it. i just want freedom...
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ok, so i've given up on getting these balls back in. stupid things. i'll just go ballless. anyway. i just looked at an posh's set, yeah... now i feel really huge. 93 lbs?? that's what i want to weigh! and everyone tells me on no, you'd look so bad if you were that skinny, but um, no. she looked fucking hot. and we're like almost...
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homocideboy:
yay 
hammersmith:
You look awesome in all of your pictures. You don't need to change anything at all.
stupid piercings!! i took most of them out for my job interview (which went well i guess?) and i got the jealery back in, but i cant get theballs back on. args!!!
job interveiw in half an hour. *prays to every god there is* i really need this. oh please oh please oh please!!! ok. i'm gonna go finish getting ready... *crosses fingers*
hyparxis:
good luck. 
i feel like shit. fucking stackers. they really make me feel bad. and will i stop taking them? hell fucking no!! i need them!!! i'm gonna go hide in the corner and shake now....
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bhs128:
stackers? sounds like slang for WhiteCastle hamburgers.. they've been reported to cause people to twitch too...
itsalivemedia:
hang in there
hmm isnt that fun, the interview is with a susannah that spells her name the same way as me. that's kinda unusual. it's annoying having a name with 80 billion different spellings. so, anyway. got the house to myself for a couple hours. my brother is here, but he wont get up for awhile, so yeah, and even when he is up, i still pretty...
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iamtony:
road trip? 
new car! how fun! ok, so it's not mine, but still! my parents have never had a new car before, so it's very exciting. they got a corolla s. it's very cute. yup, that was pretty much how i spent my day. i have nothing else to report. so sorry for boring anyone who read this.
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tarnish:
Thanks for the good luck wishes! I'm so anxious and nervous, hehe, I hope I get it.
boyamihardcore:
I was just giving you shit! I knew you weren't that young!
*yawn* i dont care if it's only 9:30. i'm really sleepy. i'm going to bed. mmm.... bed....
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klonopin_chugger:
will ya quiet down! i'm tryin to sleep!zzzzzzz....... 
oldmanwithers:
sleep is for the weak!!
40 mg of prozac, 50 mg of imitrex, 25 mg of ephedrine, 800 mg of motrin, is it any wonder that my stomach hurts?
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iamtony:
whoa, you sound like jim morrison.
hyparxis:
...and a partridge in a pear tree...
*rimshot*
*rimshot*
update on my last entry on eating disorders- i just came across someone's profile that said they're into "raising spoiled little anorexic brats to be prom queen" or somehting along those lines. I HATE SHIT LIKE THAT!!! wtf??? anorexia isnt about being spoiled. it's about being sick. very very sick. like, enough so that about 20% of anoretics DIE from it. we are not spoiled...
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fauxhawk:
A friend of my fought bulimia. Its not easy and its not pretty and most of the times you just feel extremely helpless.
Peoples ignorance knows no boundaries.
Peoples ignorance knows no boundaries.
viking99:
Thanks, I'm feeling better already!
living with an eating disorder is weird. after awhile you get so used to it, it becomes such a part of you, that not only can you not see how you could've lived without it, but you begin to wonder how other people live. do they really eat something without having to first find out exactly what's in it, how long it'll take to burn...
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lebette79596:
Im sure it doesnt help being a gemini...thinkers. My best girlfrend is a classic gem and thinks so much - even in her sleep. When we sleep in the same bed, she has full-on conversations, weighing her options when she isnt cracking me in the head with her elbows.
Are all gems so difficult to sleep with?! lol
Are all gems so difficult to sleep with?! lol
artchick:
what do you hallucinate? (is it drug induced, or..___?)
fucking teeth!! arg!!! it's not fair dammit. i brush. i floss. i rinse. i do all that good stuff that i'm supposed to and i was just blessed with teeth from hell tha fall apart. i went to get my teeth cleaned today. yeah, i need 3 crowns. i have 2 other cavaties. some decay. all in all there were major problems with 8 of...
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that will make things ok
no glimpse of truth
to change how you feel
All I can do is care,
strive to empathize,
and attempt to understand
My heart goes out to you
and there's nothing I can do
[Edited on Jan 20, 2004 7:22PM]
A. Crowley