susannahjoy

living with an eating disorder is weird. after awhile you get so used to it, it becomes such a part of you, that not only can you not see how you could've lived without it, but you begin to wonder how other people live. do they really eat something without having to first find out exactly what's in it, how long it'll take to burn off, what else you've eaten, what else you will eat, how much you weigh (exactly), etc. i just find it so amazing that most people out there are hungry, so they eat something. and it' sjust as simple as that. nothing involving food is simple for me. everything has to be very carefully thought out first. even when i'm not particularly hungry, i'm still always thinking about it. it's interesting how something can take over your life that way.