So I've been dwelling on it
And it's just as pointless as everything else is and I won't consider what my problem was anymore.
I'll get over it.
Feelings are so momentary yet I spend days analyzing each one.
I think I need something better to do with my time.
And I would use it for something good- but I'm not that nice (so I...
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And it's just as pointless as everything else is and I won't consider what my problem was anymore.
I'll get over it.
Feelings are so momentary yet I spend days analyzing each one.
I think I need something better to do with my time.
And I would use it for something good- but I'm not that nice (so I...
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I think it's guilt
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thejosh:
So you feel guilty for being pretty?
So feel that people treat you like good person only because of your looks?
Does that make you a bad person?
If you are a physically beautiful person then be proad of it. I am rather cute myself and I am very happy about it. So people judge you on your looks, don't feel guilty for their ignorance.
Everyone makes judgements based on first appearance and the idea that someone could see through the looks and like you for you is very romantic, but not human nature. At least if they want to know you based on looks you can make them see how great a person you too. But if you were ugly then they would have never likely even cared to get to know the real you. Consider yourself luckly that people want to know you for whatever reason.
So feel that people treat you like good person only because of your looks?
Does that make you a bad person?
If you are a physically beautiful person then be proad of it. I am rather cute myself and I am very happy about it. So people judge you on your looks, don't feel guilty for their ignorance.
Everyone makes judgements based on first appearance and the idea that someone could see through the looks and like you for you is very romantic, but not human nature. At least if they want to know you based on looks you can make them see how great a person you too. But if you were ugly then they would have never likely even cared to get to know the real you. Consider yourself luckly that people want to know you for whatever reason.
howdidigethere:
i agree
I will be forever in a state of contemplation, you know.
Unless! they invent and program some machine to think for me... and then I would never have a thought of my own because the mothership would only let me (and everyone else) think what she's thinking....
And she's thinking this smiley picture right here -
- is quite disturbing.
Unless! they invent and program some machine to think for me... and then I would never have a thought of my own because the mothership would only let me (and everyone else) think what she's thinking....
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sigma:
When I was a teenager I thought the same way. Here is my advice: Find a way to live on the edge. Do some really dangerous things for a while since you know that you'll eventually die anyways.
I didn't die and I feel a lot better now.
I didn't die and I feel a lot better now.
sigma:
I hate the barfing smiley too.
Thank goodness for the people next door and their bright idea to strip AND rebuild their deck.
Yes, a marvelous idea to start right on that at 7 in the morning!
Bastards.
And I don't even have a cigarette to go outside and stare them down while smoking.
..::big sigh::..
I can't be vicious and intimidating without one.
But, I think....I think I think I...
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Yes, a marvelous idea to start right on that at 7 in the morning!
Bastards.
And I don't even have a cigarette to go outside and stare them down while smoking.
..::big sigh::..
I can't be vicious and intimidating without one.
But, I think....I think I think I...
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jspooky:
Roark, I think. There is nobody in the history of real-life or literature that kicked as much ass, internally and externally, than Howard Roark. He left every one of his enemies inn complete shambles. He put his foot up so many asses, I almost crapped my pants.
Galt delivered a better Rand thesis, though. You'll get there in Atlas Shrugged. Tell me what you think.
Roark is the precurser to the egoists in Atlas Shrugged. Rand was still toying with her mantra a little in The Fountianhead. She had all her ducks in a row when she set out to write her masterpiece, Atlas Shrugged. For some reason, Roark seems stronger to me than Rearden, although Rearden is the final version of Rand's vision. Hmm...
I need to re-read them both, as it has been over a year. I bet you and I can ramble on for hours once I've read up on my Rand a little more.
I have to finish Stephen King's "It" first though. Heh heh.
So what's your god-given talent you spoke of in your last post? If you tell me yours, I'll tell you mine...
-Mike
Galt delivered a better Rand thesis, though. You'll get there in Atlas Shrugged. Tell me what you think.
Roark is the precurser to the egoists in Atlas Shrugged. Rand was still toying with her mantra a little in The Fountianhead. She had all her ducks in a row when she set out to write her masterpiece, Atlas Shrugged. For some reason, Roark seems stronger to me than Rearden, although Rearden is the final version of Rand's vision. Hmm...
I need to re-read them both, as it has been over a year. I bet you and I can ramble on for hours once I've read up on my Rand a little more.
I have to finish Stephen King's "It" first though. Heh heh.
So what's your god-given talent you spoke of in your last post? If you tell me yours, I'll tell you mine...
-Mike
sigma:
You seem so...unfullfilled with life.
What's wrong???
What's wrong???
Today was eventful yet unproductive.
::Sigh::
It's funny at work when the old men ask me questions.
How ridiculously charming they are questioning me about boys.
How hollow could one possibly feel to know that something you were graced with; nothing earned by your greatness, will be the only thing to receive acknowledgement from society.
It doesn't leave you with much motivation to pursue anything...
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::Sigh::
It's funny at work when the old men ask me questions.
How ridiculously charming they are questioning me about boys.
How hollow could one possibly feel to know that something you were graced with; nothing earned by your greatness, will be the only thing to receive acknowledgement from society.
It doesn't leave you with much motivation to pursue anything...
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thejosh:
I heard the same thing about TOOL's new album, out end of 2004. Maynard is done with his APC comments and was suppose to be hitting the studio in June. If he did we don't know yet.
I almost went and saw APC in Nashville. Can't remember why I didn't go, but I am mad at myself for not going. I will be at the next one of TOOL's or APC.
I almost went and saw APC in Nashville. Can't remember why I didn't go, but I am mad at myself for not going. I will be at the next one of TOOL's or APC.
thejosh:
I read somewhere that APC will be back for a third album. If you notice the first two have had completely different sounds and the third is suppose to be no different bring a completely new sound to APC.
The none Maynard part of APC has already started writing for their third album. With a TOOL album at the end 2004 to early 2005 and then TOOL touring through most of 2005. Of course we won't see that album till mid to late 2006. Of course APC could do there third album without Maynard, but that would be professional suicide, so it isn't likely to happen.
As long as I have the TOOL album coming relatively soon I can wait. And then their are the other albums I am looking forward to this year: AC/DC, Billy Corgan, Chevelle and maybe Deftones (they have been in the studio since Jan) by the end of the year. I am giddy as well.
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The none Maynard part of APC has already started writing for their third album. With a TOOL album at the end 2004 to early 2005 and then TOOL touring through most of 2005. Of course we won't see that album till mid to late 2006. Of course APC could do there third album without Maynard, but that would be professional suicide, so it isn't likely to happen.
As long as I have the TOOL album coming relatively soon I can wait. And then their are the other albums I am looking forward to this year: AC/DC, Billy Corgan, Chevelle and maybe Deftones (they have been in the studio since Jan) by the end of the year. I am giddy as well.
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I don't think I could ever get enough alone time.
Being alone at home all day is wonderful.
I like the quiet.
I like that I only hear my thoughts and no ones senseless chatter about unimportant things to me.
If it could be like this everday, I would be in heaven... or wind up with dementia from lack of social contact.
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Being alone at home all day is wonderful.
I like the quiet.
I like that I only hear my thoughts and no ones senseless chatter about unimportant things to me.
If it could be like this everday, I would be in heaven... or wind up with dementia from lack of social contact.
However, I don't...
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sigma:
The thing is that after a while you do get enough alone time if you really REALLY isolate yourself...or so that has been my experience.
phobos:
thats sweet that your a rand fan.
and coincidentally (sp?) enough, we just lost our cable again and nine times out of ten were watching the family guy dvd.
and coincidentally (sp?) enough, we just lost our cable again and nine times out of ten were watching the family guy dvd.
I like unannounced visits.
Yes, they make me extremely happy.
Too bad it had to end this morning, and too bad he's going to be 4 hours late to work.
Oh well....
-big sigh-
Now I have two days off and nothing to do. Oh, what a waste.
Complete Randomness; I think I might live the 50's American dream for women... cook, clean, pain-killers and...
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Yes, they make me extremely happy.
Too bad it had to end this morning, and too bad he's going to be 4 hours late to work.
Oh well....
-big sigh-
Now I have two days off and nothing to do. Oh, what a waste.
Complete Randomness; I think I might live the 50's American dream for women... cook, clean, pain-killers and...
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sigma:
It's nice when I meet people who understand me...happens a lot since I joined this site...
Never read Sylvia....
Never read Sylvia....
So I've been toying with the idea to pierce the inside cart of my ear...
and finally
I did it.
I ' m e x t r e m e l y e x c i t e d
and finally
I did it.
I ' m e x t r e m e l y e x c i t e d
sigma:
"FAVORITE BOOKS: Atlas Shrugged, The Fountianhead"
We should be friends.
We should be friends.
sigma:
What are your feelings on Fiona Apple?
I work too much.
From now on, days off = phone turned off.
-Big sigh-
So, distance is a bad thing. And distance over time doesn't give me velocity- it gives me way too much time to think and be content without my boyfriend.
I feel bad.
Maybe he just doesn't realize that I'm incurably miserable and am destined to live a lonely life.
I...
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From now on, days off = phone turned off.
-Big sigh-
So, distance is a bad thing. And distance over time doesn't give me velocity- it gives me way too much time to think and be content without my boyfriend.
I feel bad.
Maybe he just doesn't realize that I'm incurably miserable and am destined to live a lonely life.
I...
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metaleric:
Your too young to feel this way. Have some fun.
Party clean-ups are no fun.
Nope
Nope
So why are you not nice?
You change your self by observing yourself. Live life as it comes and the analyst will be doing her work anyway. No need to do overtime. You'll see.
Just ride the fucking emotions.