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LOOK!!!! i added some more pictures!
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Well, I'm just ready to go to a REAL doctor who can give me a REAL diagnosis. I've been diagnosed with so many different things at this point. I'm fairly confident I have ADD..and I'm fairly confident I'm bi-polar...I just think it's odd how the meds used to treat those things don't seem to work for me. ADD meds tend to make me have mixed cycles, and anti-depressants and lithium make me sluggish. Who knows....I'm just going to enjoy this three months of mania and hope to find a good doctor in the meantime!
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Sorry to hear that....wish I could mail you a puppy...but that would be WAY expensive as my man recently pointed out to me when I inquired about mailing one to somebody...sigh...
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i just added an ass load of pictures.
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Yeah, we only moved about 3/4's or our shit this time so it wasn't that bad. Spent a week cleaning the duplex...it was NASTY...spent the next week painting...spent the next week moving everything we needed and unpacking...and still painting...and now I am just pretty much fucking off...as you can see! LOL The rest of our stuff is still at the house...we're thinking about hiring a mover to bring all that crap here from Jackson once we actually sell our house and buy a new one...I am counting the days! lol
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Well, I have to do painting in sessions....paint a room here...and hallway there...actually I just have the two bedrooms and hallway left to paint...I was thinking about tackling the spare bedroom next....it's going to be the kids' room, so I'd like to get it done before they come here in two weeks!
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so went to the dmv paid them more money and now i can drive my volkswagen again. yay. i drove it around the hood for a few laps and it drives ok. its actually really scary. i remember it took a while to get used to that car. but once i did i was so comfortable. i drove it any where. now remembering traffic in...
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well i guess i should update, even though no one reads. but im back from LA. that was good the drives were fun. seeing my grandfather was good. having the ipod was good stuff too. i spent the night at the pacific palms. it was a lovely hotel. it needs a bar again. neat views of west covina la puente and baldwin park. it looked...
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i got a bass and all i can play are 6 string songs. granted i know 3 songs.
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I wanted to learn to play the bass for a while...simply because a friend of mine, who played the bass, said I could play the bass with long finger nails! LOL But alas...I do not own one to learn on...and there ya have it...

I have just been super busy lately. I started cosmetology school January 3rd, and I've upped my hours of work to 6 to 7 hours a day...so 6 to 7 hours of work a day and 5 hours of night school a day....I'm pretty much just home to sleep! lol This is the first time I've even LOOKED at the computer in a week! LOL But anywho...so how have you been?
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ive been thinking more and more about counseling. i probably should go. i think i am getting delusional. during the day i have all these happy thoughts about EPM and i still living the life that i thought we could have. by the time i get home i stop, realizing its not reality. the hard part is is the delusion of the happiness is what...
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mngddss:
Ohhhh gotcha. You could just start leaving post it notes all over the city that read "Please call and make me an appt with a psychiatrist before I snap and shoot a lot of people. Signed, Name 555-1212"
mngddss:
That's the point!
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there are too many people fucking with me being me.
toolgirl:
I'm such a loser. wink I have to update more. Maybe that will be my new years resolution.

Acutally, a friend told me he was going to do less porn for his resolution and I said, "I'm going to do MORE."

How you doin?
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ughh i had a bad dream
im not ok
this is not a good day at all. with the holiday crap going on, my sister and kid moving in, the loss of my lover, the constant reminder that shes using the time off from school to disconnect from me, work and trying to be good at it, the whole ipod excitment/drama; im falling apart. the...
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Yes french onion dip is the shizat! lol I used to be a bean dip fan, but now it's either french onion dip or queso...mmmmmm quesoooooo! LOL surreal
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Yeah, we were actually eating the already made kind...but I have decided I prefer the kind you mix together...a good ol bag of Lipton's onion soup mix and a thing of sour cream...mmmmmm...also, it is not good at room temperature i ahve discoverd! LOL
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my journal is lacking some serious comments. oh well i think im done with this place.
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prockgirlscout:
IMO= In my opinion

Where's oroville? It sounds familiar. I grew up in San Luis Obispo.
prockgirlscout:
So is it all floody there?
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well turkey day is over. it was ok. watched football mostly. this weekend is long, but now its like 'hmm i dont want it to end'. i get to go back to a cold damp shop. i cant wait ha. i'll live. the girl i work with thinks im strange cuz i dress the same when its 100 degrees, 70 degrees and 40 degrees. my...
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figmentation:
already in process of taking a look...

I"m just razzin you btw...
figmentation:
tell me about the twin turbo pic...
and good job with putting the bug back in order...

[Edited on Dec 02, 2005 8:55PM]
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somedays i dont feel like i worked hard at all. today i feel like ive worked hard. ha. my legs hurt and my shoulder does too. i smacked it good with a pry bar. right in the spot where it will hurt the most. it wasnt really that bad but in that spot its gonna hurt for another day. ive been pretty mellow. not emotion...
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Happy Turkey Day! bok
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Yes, I know..I've been a little more family oriented of late...had a bad swinging experience, PLUS we're broke...so those two things combined equal..domestic...very, very domestic...like crochetting and cleaning house domestic... biggrin
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no matter how much you want your life to change... it wont change unless you change it. no matter how much you want someones life to change...it wont change unless they change it.

i want to go off on my own. im scared. my career is stupid. it relies on tests speed accuracy and meeting a canidate in person.

how do i find a job...
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You know....you have got to stop changing your name without warning..it's amazing I even figured out who you were! lol Sounds like you're having some difficulties huh? Vanny's brother is having a hard time right now too...his mom died last weekend and his wife just informed him she wants a divorce...and all right before the holidays...sometimes I wonder if life isn't just one big joke we're all supposed to just sit back and laugh at...but anywho...

I usually carve a pumpkin myself, but I didn't this year. My stem broke off so I decided to not even bother...you see...last year my stem broke off and I was drunk and apparently made a big deal over it...so this year Vanny picked out a beautifully round pumpkin with a nice long curvy stem for me...so I could pull the top off with ease this year....I went to a great deal of trouble to keep the kids from breaking the lovely stem off while in the grocery store....well...needless to say, my pumpkin got left in the truck...you know...four pumpkins and a bunch of groceries...one of them was bound to be forgotten...and we drove around with it back there and it rolled around and the stem broke off...SO...I decided I just didn't need to carve one myself this year...just the kidos...I don't even know where the hell my pumpkin went...I guess Vanny threw it away...hmmm...