Well, the concert was fun. Home was not. My sister started fighting with me again, she punched me in the arm just before I left to go back to Boston and wished all sorts of hate on me. It made me fucking cry. Not cause she hurt me (cause she didn't), but because I cannot go back home ever without her fighting with me, and it makes me absolutely sick. On top of that, my mom does NOTHING to stop or prevent it. As soon as my sister starts her bitching, my mom just locks herself in her room, and comes out only to yell at me, thus placing the blame, no matter who started it all (usually my sister. as many people who are members of this site can tell you, I don't start fights, but if someone else does, I will fucking end it), and making me hate myself for going home.
One of the things that pisses me off the most is that my sister always physically hurts me somehow during these fights, and then denies it up and down, despite the fact I come out of this shit bruised and bleeding. My mom always sides with her because she's the "normal" daughter, and I am her failure. I have never once laid a hand on a member of my family, or anyone for that matter during an argument. I can hurt people too, ask Pip
. I'm so tired of petty things turning into me getting beat up and taking it.
The thing that pisses me off the most is that during today's scuffle, one of my corset piercings tore a bit... I'm afraid it might not recover. It's pretty bad.
For now I'm trying to beat it by applying tea tree oil and salt soaking it twice a day. It's about all I can do. I've been covering it with a band-aid loosely to keep from it being caught on anything while I try to recover it.
Now my cat is mad at me for being away for 2 nights in a row.
Today is also the first time I am missing a GC concert in my area. I've seen them 15 times to date, never missing a show in MA or RI. I couldn't afford to go to the show at Six Flags NE. I am also missing another show of their's at the Tweeter Center on Saturday. It makes me sad.
I'm tired of having things to rant about. Life needs to cut me a break. I miss smiling.
x0x0,
Sid
P.S. I'm thinking of bleaching the hell out of my hair this weekend. I want my hair as white as I can possibly get it to go. I'll most likely dye the tips of my hawk baby pink. What do you think?
One of the things that pisses me off the most is that my sister always physically hurts me somehow during these fights, and then denies it up and down, despite the fact I come out of this shit bruised and bleeding. My mom always sides with her because she's the "normal" daughter, and I am her failure. I have never once laid a hand on a member of my family, or anyone for that matter during an argument. I can hurt people too, ask Pip
. I'm so tired of petty things turning into me getting beat up and taking it.
The thing that pisses me off the most is that during today's scuffle, one of my corset piercings tore a bit... I'm afraid it might not recover. It's pretty bad.
For now I'm trying to beat it by applying tea tree oil and salt soaking it twice a day. It's about all I can do. I've been covering it with a band-aid loosely to keep from it being caught on anything while I try to recover it.
Now my cat is mad at me for being away for 2 nights in a row.
Today is also the first time I am missing a GC concert in my area. I've seen them 15 times to date, never missing a show in MA or RI. I couldn't afford to go to the show at Six Flags NE. I am also missing another show of their's at the Tweeter Center on Saturday. It makes me sad.
I'm tired of having things to rant about. Life needs to cut me a break. I miss smiling.
x0x0,
Sid
P.S. I'm thinking of bleaching the hell out of my hair this weekend. I want my hair as white as I can possibly get it to go. I'll most likely dye the tips of my hawk baby pink. What do you think?
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yeah it was bean and grain week at school
the pureed beans make really good dips and spreads. yum