sid

So, I got up this morning... realized I need to buy another $44 subway pass so I can get to and from school every day. My bank account now has a whole $30 in it for the next 2 weeks. I never stress about money, cause I'm often broke, but today, I cried cause I'm worried about how I'mma feed my kitty and shit. I can't exactly afford to right now, and it fucking pisses me off cause I'm always left high and dry. It seems that everytime something drastic happens to me, my mom isn't around. I'm tired of not being able to get ahold of anyone and not being able to get things I need.

I'm freaking out here. I wish I weren't in a class right now. Cause all I wanna do is sit in my room and cry. I hate money. I hate it so much. $30 is not gonna help me survive for the next few weeks, and I haven't heard anything from my mom. She was supposed to e-mail me while she was on the trip, but why would she e-mail her other daughter? Fuck... I'm sorry. Depression is setting in, and I haven't taken my medication in awhile...

Yeah, I'm not going to my next class.

xoxo
Sid