Sinus infection has been confirmed. I’m kind of feeling like death. Antibiotics are making me feel horrible. At least when it’s over, I’ll be better.
Thursday is my 18th anniversary of being a suicide girl. My first set is going to be old enough to model for the site now… seems strange.
I don’t know where my life and SG stuff is going. I probably won’t ever have the chance to have another set purchased, and I find it kind of not fun. I can’t even get a photographer to work with me without them wanting to pay them, even if they’re an official photographer for the site. Something that’s not supposed to happen. I get there’s a ton of competition, but I was seriously hoping that I could shoot again some day, and I seem to feel like that isn’t going to happen. I’ll stay here because I love the community.
I kind of feel like I’m losing hope in myself. Maybe it’s the sick and all the things I just found out are wrong with me health wise. I’m nervous about my future and my health… let’s just say I’m not looking forward to have to give myself injections… I already deal with EDS, I don’t want to have to give myself monthly shots.
I don’t know. Life is never perfect, I know that. I just am tired of the bad things.
x0x0,
☠️-Sid-☠️
