No, I'm seriously wondering, I mean, sets that have gone up after mine are now being picked up left and right. I mean, what is wrong with me, with my modeling, or am I just too old? I just don't know what to do, short of getting plastic surgery, anymore.
I was really hoping that this would be my comeback set, but I guess I'm wrong to someone absolutely hates me, and therefore, won't help me out, give a guiding hand, or simply just throwing me a pity bone and giving me hope that anything I may shoot in the future, and if I will shoot ever again, that there's a tiny glimmer of hope for me.
I put in my all for this set, not to mention traveling to finally get to a photographer who would be the kindest person in the world and give me a chance...
And to say I am broken hearted right now is a huge goddamned understatement. My husband was fired from his job the other day (yep, so close to Christmas) because if allegations one of his former co-workers made up just because 1) I am a model here on SG, and therefore a slut, 2) we are not part of the same church she is (all of the new hires at this place of employment are from the same cult-like church, and the last several people who have either been fired or left had complaints filed against them by the same person, who gets bonuses to fill those positions with her cult buddies!) 3) we are atheists, and thus live a sinful life. But it's so amazingly Christian, to "lovingly" get T fired without even so much as batting an eye when lying about and saying that someone sexually harassed her. And how very caring and Christian of her to leave us without means to buy anything for each other or my stepsons for the holidays (which we celebrated as a time of relaxation, peace, and thoughtfulness), but also so Christian to take heath insurance away from a disabled veteran and his wife, remind you all, the very health insurance that is keeping me alive! I am absolutely terrified. Without my medication, I will be in unbearable pain, and you can forget anymore interactions with me, let alone sets.
And I'm sure this horrible bitch who thinks she's amazing on her goddamned high horse planned it just for this time of the year because anybody or any agency that can help us at this time due to vacations and holidays.
I'm not exactly okay at the moment. I'm worried that we can't bounce back from this quick enough to make 2017 a better year. I am just so fucking scared right now. I was hoping having my set purchased, we'd have a small bit of money. And all I really wanted to do was get more work done on my unfinished tattoo, and get my husband the tattoo he's been wanting (an SG-related one, since it's how we met).
I guess what it all boils down to, is that I cannot fathom how people can be so horrible to each other during a time of year, where even in WWI, both sides laid down their arms, sat together and sang Christmas Carols to each other, gave gifts to each other, and even played soccer together. But this one, "true" Christian who has been filing complaints about my husband's supposedly sexual harassment toward her at work, and I guess part of the harassment was that it was an open secret among the employees there that I *am*, in fact, a model for suicidegirls, and it's not like anyone has pulled the website up, log in, to look at my boobs in a place of employment, and the main reason they know I am an SG in the first place is that I used to work there, and one other girl who worked there too, during orientation, said she knew I was an SG because her boyfriend was "obsessed with" me. That got weird quick (the boyfriend started showing up to take her to and from work), and a former (at the time, but he's back to being one) Pastor knew it. I found it odd. But he said "I'm a man first, a pastor second, I don't live under a rock, you know!"
So the cold-hearted woman who has been getting all of these hardworking employees, some of which started in 2008 when I did, who haven't had a *SINGLE* complaint against them in the past, started to get complaints when all the empty spots are being filled with members of the same cult, and they're the ones who are continually getting $500 refer-a-friend hiring bonuses, and no one has caught on yet? Well, they have now. I posted a blog on my Facebook, and I have no idea, but it had taken on a life of its own, and someone from the company about my concerns and what-nots, so I told her the whole story... But telling her a story isn't going to pay for my healthcare, which seems to be declining again due to this.
Happy Holidays, (since it literally pains me to be on the internet right now because everyone I know is posting how they're in different countries, getting any and all gifts that they want.) I'm going to just lay in bed hoping for life to just miraculously get better... I'll settle for a hovering between bad and okay.
But please, help us by getting this set purchased!
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