sid

So, yea... I'd be feeling much, much better today if I didn't keep remembering that if my mother weren't so psycho, I'd be going of to LA tonight for the SGB auditions and junk. I spent over a month preparing an awesome dance for the auditions, and I won't even get to preform it. I'm bummed, as usual.

I know, I know, I suck. I need to feel other emotions except for crap. It's just that it's been a pretty shitty week, and on top of things, today, I'm not feeling to spectacular due to the extreme lack of sleep I've been going through lately. I have one class left today, and I'm thinkin I might just show up, hand in my paper, and be like, "listen, I feel like crap, may I have the homework and go home?". Maybe my professor will assume I'm responsible and give me an excused absence.

I have a mighty need to get real wasted tonight. Alcohol is my friend, and will help me temporarly forget why I'm so mad. Isn't this how some people become alcoholics? Meh. I know my limit. I don't get too drunk, and I can control myself. Why the fuck am I justifying this shit?

Another question. Why does my roommate feel the need to blast such shitty, repeatative music? In my esteemed opinion, music that is repeatative (whether it be a lyric, a repeated sample, repeated riff, what have you) is boring and annoying. Those are the shitty songs that get stuck in my head all the time.

Someone needs to throw a "let's cheer Sid up" gathering...

Love,
Sid