we went swimming again tonight. it's possibly my favourite part of the day. we go every day or two. we walk to the pool and feel a bit nervous. there's always the worry that the pool will be too cold; the air is usually 18C by the time we swim, and it feels chilly in comparison to the 29C high of the afternoon.
we slip into the water, trying not to get wet until we can't help it any longer. we dive and kick and reappear, slicking our hair and rubbing water from our eyes. as soon as we're in the water completely, it's the perfect temperature: cool enough to be refreshing and warm enough that we don't get chilly, even when we aren't moving a whole lot.
when i was young, not even really a teenager, i'd go swimming almost every day. i'd imagine that my body looked beautiful in the water and hope desperately that someone noticed.
swimming as an adult with my husband, the submerged lights glowing coolly, i feel like those childhood fantasies have come true. it's not that i'm aware of my hus staring me up, or i feel like a mermaid; i think it has much more to do with me feeling loved and comfortable in my on body. i was one of those perpetually awkward, completely nervous girls. it had a lot to do with familiy situations but also i didn't know how much i was worth.
of course i've come a long way in ten or eleven years; who doesn't? my nighttime swims make me feel refreshed and calm and my body feels great after them. i am getting stronger every day.
tonight's late night snack: homemade potato chowder. my aunt's mother in law brought this recipe with her from ireland when she moved. it promises to be delicious.
tomorrow i should be seeing drake for the first time since our set. i'm really excited.
i am very happy; in the next two months, miss bones ladyexxa and miss witch redmess will be in california and i will lavish them with rinlove.
another happy thing: today i finished every last bit of my green card paperwork. YAY!
we slip into the water, trying not to get wet until we can't help it any longer. we dive and kick and reappear, slicking our hair and rubbing water from our eyes. as soon as we're in the water completely, it's the perfect temperature: cool enough to be refreshing and warm enough that we don't get chilly, even when we aren't moving a whole lot.
when i was young, not even really a teenager, i'd go swimming almost every day. i'd imagine that my body looked beautiful in the water and hope desperately that someone noticed.
swimming as an adult with my husband, the submerged lights glowing coolly, i feel like those childhood fantasies have come true. it's not that i'm aware of my hus staring me up, or i feel like a mermaid; i think it has much more to do with me feeling loved and comfortable in my on body. i was one of those perpetually awkward, completely nervous girls. it had a lot to do with familiy situations but also i didn't know how much i was worth.
of course i've come a long way in ten or eleven years; who doesn't? my nighttime swims make me feel refreshed and calm and my body feels great after them. i am getting stronger every day.
tonight's late night snack: homemade potato chowder. my aunt's mother in law brought this recipe with her from ireland when she moved. it promises to be delicious.
tomorrow i should be seeing drake for the first time since our set. i'm really excited.
i am very happy; in the next two months, miss bones ladyexxa and miss witch redmess will be in california and i will lavish them with rinlove.
another happy thing: today i finished every last bit of my green card paperwork. YAY!
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and you know... i think i'd rather hitchhike and take my chances of getting dismembered than ever take a Greyhound bus again.