pudding

so..........i need a better profile picture and a hobby. tried cleaning up a little in my room, but lost my motivation quickly and started to kicking clothes around the floor. how sad. my hands are shaking, but i won't tell you why. at least all the garbage if off the top of my desk, i can see the monitor clearly now. motivated by what? too many questions, more content is needed. hoping all goes well tomorrow, been a while since i've cooked anything. god damnit if it can't be microwaved i don't need it!!! i feel fuzzy on the inside of my head. like its covered in soft pink shag carpet and there are kittens rolling around in there. does that make sense to anyone? slept so long today that i gave myself a terrible headache, and i believe i made my husband mad at me because we didn't spent time together before he went to work. catching up is lovely. i realize that i have friends seperate from those of my husband and that it feels good because i felt very lonely in that department for a long time. my hands are still shaking .