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Things just keep getting worse. I was in a really bad accident yesterday...No one got hurt thankfully, although i wasn't wearing a seat belt, part of my i don't care about anything anymore campagin. In retrospect things could've been a lot worse. A good friend of mine was arrested last night and faces a shit house of trouble more so than i'm facing right now. Unfortinatly for me after my short lived Cereal City Arsonists reunion i'm running low in the friends department. Note toself stop burninig bridges. I'm leaving out key details here cause i don't need to go worrying someone even more.

I goto the shrink again today for the 2nd time. After that i'm off to pharmiscist where i'll be doped up on heavy medication. I like the medication i prescribed myself better (although with a short list of friends i guess its going to be hard to come by for a while). I'm worried about medication, i'm having a hard enough time keeping my promises as is, i don't think medication is gonna help, but its worth a shot. Christ i gotta keep this promise cause i couldn't take an afterlife knowing i made those brown eyes swell up with tears. I miss her, and i know she misses me. My next court apperance is halloween. I hope i'll see her there. IF she is there i don't think she can get in trouble for approaching me and saying whats up. Maybe i'll get really lucky and she'll bring her daughter, and i give and or recieve a hug. Right about now i need some cheering up...and a hug from someone other than my mom.