Its offical...i'm alone. I have no friends. The urge to jump from 794 between those two smoking spires grows in my belly. I hate this. I hate this. i hate this. I hate me.......
My last hallowed bashtion of friendship disiapated last night at work. Apparantly my preception of reality is skewed??? cause i use drugs???? what the fuck? of course it is hehh
God damnit i'm so tired of being alone. This appartment is lonely and cold and i can't bitch at anyone. If I told my mom or dad they'd pull me outta here and take me back to the land of the living dead (battle creek michigan). This is far better than there. My heart belongs here. my mind is somewhere else.
I hate this bipolar shit. What i wouldn't give to be stable for like 5minutes. So the next time someone asks me what kind of day i'm having i don't brake a glass and start draging the shards upwards on my wrist and yell "Does it look i'm having a good day to you"
P.S. kids if you try this at work they'll let you clock out early and sit at the bar
My last hallowed bashtion of friendship disiapated last night at work. Apparantly my preception of reality is skewed??? cause i use drugs???? what the fuck? of course it is hehh
God damnit i'm so tired of being alone. This appartment is lonely and cold and i can't bitch at anyone. If I told my mom or dad they'd pull me outta here and take me back to the land of the living dead (battle creek michigan). This is far better than there. My heart belongs here. my mind is somewhere else.
I hate this bipolar shit. What i wouldn't give to be stable for like 5minutes. So the next time someone asks me what kind of day i'm having i don't brake a glass and start draging the shards upwards on my wrist and yell "Does it look i'm having a good day to you"
P.S. kids if you try this at work they'll let you clock out early and sit at the bar