I love my job. I really do. But the biggest frustration is that there are so many owners that want a say in the business that it takes forever for anything to get done or decided on. For example:

Tomorrow we have our Grand Opening, even though we have been open since December 21st. Confusing I know but it gets better. We have talked about...
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This is an interesting subject. The biggest lie I have ever told has been to myself. I told myself that I was worth of love, and that was a lie. I told myself that she loved me( many she's in fact) and that was a lie. I told myself that I could look past many transgressions and continue relationships with family or with a...
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melusine2908:
This was really deep and saddening to hear, I think that you are right; the biggest lies we tell are to ourselves. But I also believe everyone is worthy of love, no matter their addictions or issues, we are all broken and most addictions are proof of how having no one to care or love us can do. I hope you find people who show you real love and that you can get past all of your issues, because if no one can give you the love you deserve, I hope YOU do, I hope that against everything you find love for yourself and show it.ย 
user8992:
The hardest thing to do is love yourself and see your value ย (I struggle daily) further to that it's then difficult to find proper healthy love however I believe people can love you even if they don't show it or you might not realize because of the way they show you. I have often felt like a burden to many, my parents and exs mainly) but now I see the personal struggles they have been facing (past and present ) they love me incredibly but are so tied up in their own suffering it's hard to love me how I've needed. I see this too that my own struggles prevent my being able to be here for others and you. It's not because I wanted to or love you or others any less. ย It's because I'm not loving myself enough to feel better. I forgot my value and my happiness do its hard to be there for others. ย You are an incredibly wonderful soul J. Don't ever forget that! ๐Ÿ’š

Saturday, when i walked into the door from a long day of work, i was met with news that a good friends step mother ( whom also took me in as a step son 6 years ago with the lunacy between my own mother and myself) passed away in her sleep that afternoon. I quickly collected my friend and drove her to her fathers house in...
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user8992:
So sorry for your loss sweetheart. That's not good. She sounded amazing.ย 
medusaw:
I'm sorry to read that ... and I can't give you any advice :/ the only thing that comes to my mind is that you can let her be with you forever in your memories <3 I send you a hug :*

I broke a cardnal rule for myself. I reconnected with my mother after 5 years because of my health. To be completely honest, i did it because i was ready to die from my stomach ordeals and wanted her to know that i didnt hate her and still loved her. She came full throttle back into my life and convinced me that florida was where...
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just_blake:
That's pretty intense. Alcoholism kills.ย 
medusaw:
I feel your pain, really deep down, somewhere, where it's locked behind thick and heavy chains, in a box I buried. Be proud of yourself. You are amazingly strong: you took so much pain and still wanted to show your mother your love, feelings and that you care for her. Your action was, what I call humanity! Addiction starts as a decision and it's not your fault, if someone wants to walk that path. You did everything you could and more than others that gave up on your mother earlier. You were honest, even if it included suffering for both of you! I really want to hug you and tell you everything will be alright ... and things can be alright, when you find the balance between loving her and setting her free ... I think you're already on the way to do this! If I can support you in any way, let me know <3

TToday is my first day back to work since my stomach issues. Saw my new GI doctor yesterday and i am encouraged by not only his demeanor, but his candor as well. He wants to be fully aware of what i am going through before suggesting possible treatments plus was honest of his opinions of the care, hospitals, and various treatments for my conditions. He...
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caraphernelia:
Glad you are better :3
user8992:
That's awesome. That would help tremendously. Glad you had a good day. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Well 2016 is over. Thankfully! I started the year off in the hospital and ended the year the same way. Christmas eve i was sick with stomach issues and went to the ER. The issues were the same as i had been having all year and again, i end up staying multiple nights. This time, however, i only threw up and held no food or...
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What do i want for 2017? So much has gone on tbis past year and i see very little hope for the next year with everything going on with my community, the country, and the world. I want to stay optimistic, so I was thinking of what i would like to see for 2017.

I wish my mother to find happiness and sobriety. So has...
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user8992:
I think that's why we moved to the sticks and I'm very selective on who I'll be around. I wish the very best to you and hope with all of my heart that despite what is going on you will find some peace with your past and current ongoings. I know it's quite difficult I truly do. But once you let go you find a bit of freedom to just be. Sending lots of love my friend. Focus on the present moment find a journey to find yourself. In that you will find your way. I was once told I can't save anyone but myself. It's good to be there for your mom but you can't save her unfortunately. You can only take care of yourself and in that you can be healthier and better for others. ๐Ÿ’š you are an awesome soul. Things have a way of working out. They are just trying to teach you something. Once you find it and learn from it you'll move forward. Big hugs!
shinyarmour90:
Oomph. I hope you get everything you wish for and more. As for my wishes... I just hope the world doesn't deliver itself the death blow next year. You're always welcome in our snug little country!ย 
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Because I was tagged in it and was asked to. No really, I was. I was surprised too!

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pointman11:
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haliae:
Awesome! ๐Ÿ˜ Thank you for doing it ๐Ÿ˜Š what kind of writing and sketching do you do? And what kind of books do you read? ๐Ÿ˜Š