omaru

Fuck this stupid ugly face
and this brain that never functions
and these ankles that always feel twisted
and this stomach that cannot handle alcohol
and social anxiety
And an inability to ingest weed.

fuck every single aspect of my life.
and fuck expecting things to get better... they won't.

The last time I wrote a blog after a small UK meet took place I was feeling left out and acted like a bit of a dick. well there seems to be another going on right now but eh I have two things to consider...

a) I'll never be invited to another because of my previous behavior
b) I'm only going to concentrate on the...
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My mind is going weird places again.

Starting to think i've outstayed my welcome around these parts.

Maybe i'm paranoid.

Or maybe it's the cold slap of reality.

Taken from Skye and Kaikai's blog respectively because mine are always about self imposed doom & gloom: Answer the questions then create your own 1 question and repost with your own answers.

1.) What do you think about before you fall asleep at night?
Usually its 'I hope I get to sleep tonight without delay' as is often not the case.

2.) If you won...
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Been sitting at my desk for ages trying to think of how best to say things, I had a whole load of things I was going to say this morning and whilst i was at work but now I'm back home i'm coming up empty.

Things I've said yesterday cannot be unsaid, trust misplaced in me has been forever lost and I have no one...
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dousing my profile with metaphorical gasoline, let the great purge begin.

I should probably never have attended the meet in march, cause all that abstractness, that faceless entitity was presentecdd by a fucking mongoloid with a kidney bean shaped head who was unintersting to talk to, who was ignored and silenced and who's conversations revolved around everyone asking him 'are you alright/having fun' because you...
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I feel like every time I write a blog it's nothing but misery, and every time I'm miserable I consider my options of leaving this place.
When I do this I can picture certain people saying "good, get the fuck out of here RETARD!!!!" maybe those are the people that should inherit SG as a whole. Do they deserve it? Probably not, but over the...
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I feel done in, the past 3 weeks I have not known a day where I've finished before 5pm,. in the normal 8-4 office universe this fucking sucks thai ladyboy dicks in the planet of anal prison buggery.

I'm just sick and tired of everything, I hate life, it seems to have its share of hate for me. I always feel exhausted when I come...
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first day back at work and I'm already contemplating suicide in the near future.

I will never be as fast or as accurate as they want me to be, the only thing that stops them firing me is probably the fact I already have a contract and there's too much paperwork involved.

Work is bedlam at the moment, every day I'm working through lunch and...
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I'd like to say I'm fashionably late in writing my blog regarding the meet, but I just have struggled to find the words in general.

I started off the day paranoid, and proceeded into the day ever more paranoid, because plans didn't go as planned, complications arose, but were overcame and safety ensured, I kinda owe Delmantus for that guiding me along the various underground...
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Should I stay or should I go, if I go there will be trouble, if I stay there will be double.

So the song goes, so my head goes! a guy can literally go crazy thinking about these things.
Gah!

I've got exactly one week to make up my mind, and my tickets already paid for, I've blown my friend off (not like that you...
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