norma_jean

hello all.

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thanksgiving was as per usual. it was nice to see my mom. she is the best thing ever. she makes me yummy food with no animals even though she loves to eat them. she rocks.

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lately i have been consumed with self contemplation.

i seem to have a self-destructive nature with men.

i don't think it's working in my favor.

for some reason my mind, no matter how advanced i fancy it to be, cannot determine the difference between these two things:



love

1 a (1) : strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests

lust

1 obsolete a : PLEASURE, DELIGHT b : personal inclination : WISH
2 : usually intense or unbridled sexual desire : LASCIVIOUSNESS
3 a : an intense longing : CRAVING b : ENTHUSIASM, EAGERNESS



perhaps it's my age, perhaps the fact i have always been in relationships and never much single, or even the whole "i didn't have a daddy waa-waa" thing... but nevertheless i feel as if i will never be able to figure out what i want, or what i need.


am i crazy?

is this some phase of life?

tell me your stories, let me know i'm not insane/mentally retarded.

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the following time will commence with divulging into schoolwork to ensure i do not fail any of my classes.


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btw: SGFL Girls Night PART DEUX in the works.. let me know if you have any suggestions before i make an event.



xoxlove you all.xox



ps: fucking new EmilyEve set what?? yowzaaaa. go tell my lady how fucking amazing she is. now!