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Tried to fake it but even I wasn't convinced by my efforts...Last day of the year and I still want to be out for blood. Forgiveness should be high on my list of resolutions in 2019 but it's not & wasn't the year before either. Idk how I'm gonna get through this next year jobless & full of hate.... I...
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littlejohn22:
I have an ear to rebound things off if you need it, but professional help can be an asset. I hope work finds you and forgiveness as well.... Shine on you crazy diamond
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Physical attraction - Thought I had it but I guess it slipped away. It probably was just another polar opposite, anyway. Can't get over the thought of my love someday walking into my line of site when I least expect it... & me just waving him on by like, idc.

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missdevhill:
Don't get me wrong :) It takes allot for me to get there...I mean, yeah, there are pretty petty people everywhere & I know I get side eye :/ but I would prefer all those things mentioned, over just having something nice to look at. I fall  infatuated with interesting people way to easily, I guess & the feeling seems to always fizzle out :( just thought I had something this time, that's all. Being on SG maybe makes it appear that I'm someone that shares herself easily...reality is I'm extremely reserved - like, I should be wearing a habit.
jaytee78:
Main thing is to love yourself. I think a lot of people use this site as an outlet for their inner person. As an example, I'm a very shy, quiet, reclusive and solitary person who has very few friends, but on here, I can be a lot more open and be person who I am behind the quiet mask. ❤️
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In a funk (as usual) & I'm trying to do at least on memorable thing daily...checked in with work, swept my living room & picked up BK....oh! Haven't been able to find my glasses in a few days so I ordered 2 more pairs for the year. I should do laundry today and hit club4448 before 7pm. Looking forward to when I will be able to walk around the block with Purdy the Pitoodle.

littlejohn22:
oh, this reminds me I have stuff in the dryer
wade1987:
at least you look happy, and comfy, and chores are no fun
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Dland bound :) today in Anaheim

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padre:
How was your adventure?
missdevhill:
I hope to go back soon. Single rider status is the best
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....lots of questions & no answers.

Why can't I just be happy & in love with something already? Wabisabi imperfections have always been the best.

It never used to be this difficult before.... Before what, though? I never used to have such standards. I all but have blinders on now and I still can't focus.

Fixated on perfection, as I seek a balance...
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pointman11:
That balance is a difficult one. I battle that to. I see others around me who can do that so easily but I can' figure out why. You are not alone in this. Hopefully that can ease a little bit of isolation. In regards to him... You are an incredible woman and a man would be honored and blessed to have you in his life. He does exist. He is out there.  I am sure tgast there us a man looKing for exactly that in a woman. I know I do. He will find you and you him.
missdevhill:
Posting on SG helps. Thank you for always accepting me. I hope I never want to stop
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What happened?... I thought that I had gone sooo far & made such progress...

How did I get back here, to where I started from?

Saw that I made another evil man richer...again, before I got left behind.

Saw that he shared my progress with his loved ones, before my face was smashed into my failure & I became their doormat, so... Guess, he...
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pointman11:
Looking foir work doies suck. I hope you find something tgat brings enthusiasm back to you. But to say that you will never be much? I disagree whole heartedly. You are incredible.  You have passions. You have sensuality. No regular man deserves you and not any man would do. Physically you are breath taking. And so many men would feel honored by your attention. Being filled with hate will not be and anchor for you. You can do so much and will get to where you want to be. I believe that whole heartedly
littlejohn22:
i am so sorry you are in this situation, i wish i could be there for you. Know you are loved here,
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Stuck in a rut of wanting to be intimate with someone but not wanting just anyone to touch me. I want so much that I can't have & to be honest, I have no plan for the "what ifs" so trying for it would be a disaster. I want to feel something again, though. Im innocent enough to keep it clean. ....maybe I can learn to be like a tandem sky diving instructor - they look like they get paid to cuddle.

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pointman11:
You are stunning!!!
cabocharlie:
I would jump out of a plane just to cuddle with you.