Just a virus, collecting infectuous dreams that lost all color and sense of hope. She walks like maybe she's been beat down in that corner before, Sometimes i think maybe even without legs that homegirl would find a way to walk. I hold little secrets she whispers in my ear makes its way into blackened dreams. Don't release your breath till its over.
-In korea...
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I hope i die after you, just so i can get the satisfaction of spitting on the floor at your funeral, or maybe in your casket, Whichever one seems more offensive at the time.
Would you look down and laugh? and pretend that we're still sleeping in the glass in detroit with conterfeit money in our pockets.
Sleeping on the roof at C Squat gets...
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Would you look down and laugh? and pretend that we're still sleeping in the glass in detroit with conterfeit money in our pockets.
Sleeping on the roof at C Squat gets...
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molly:
Your journals are brilliant. If you ever need a coffee, write me. We'll meet at May Day
tori:
i did what i could for the kids short of kidnapping them. i got in touch with a number of different state run services that probably wont do shit. but hopefully the mom will be scared into cutting back a bit on the drugs.
sadly, i doubt the rnc people are gonna get much of anything. somehow i just am too jaded to believe in endings like that.
why are you on the roof of c (as opposed to inside)? i remember being there in the winter and there was no fuckin heat... me and dave and shane and some other people were trying to jam. i couldn't move my fingers. it was rough. serenity wasn't a whole lot better though. they kept blowing fuses cause everyone was using space heaters....
ehhh. regardless, i hope you and everyone at c is doing well.
sadly, i doubt the rnc people are gonna get much of anything. somehow i just am too jaded to believe in endings like that.
why are you on the roof of c (as opposed to inside)? i remember being there in the winter and there was no fuckin heat... me and dave and shane and some other people were trying to jam. i couldn't move my fingers. it was rough. serenity wasn't a whole lot better though. they kept blowing fuses cause everyone was using space heaters....
ehhh. regardless, i hope you and everyone at c is doing well.
both my homeboys got arrested at the protests. i didn't really understand why. I guess nowadays throwing rocks in windows and tagging and blocking traffic is called "disturbing the peace". pfffffffffft. anyways i was too quick. It sucked having to wait like 3 days to see their dirty tired ass eyes again though. They arrested like 1,600 protesters here. speaking of jail i got my...
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mamabunny:
you know
i love you Gypsy girl.
i love you Gypsy girl.
jakelafrontiere:
I think I 've seen you on the street; hope I get to say hello to you before you go into the system. Try to live a long long life--you won't be able to provoke anyone if you're dead.
I didn't mean to run from you. I just was so scared to lose my freedom. anyone who has sat in a jail cell for more than a few days knows, actually more than a few weeks knows what the fuck i mean about that. I put out my thumb and jumped in the first car that pulled to the side, leaving you both worried...
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pumpkineater:
its so silly to complain about a couple hours, but in that time being snatched away so quickly and suddenly away from you felt like someone had ripped my heart out. if there wasnt a certain loud obnoxious boy around, i would've felt so much worse. i probably got you sick.
sa rahng heh, na oh mi.
sa rahng heh, na oh mi.
siqkat:
How were th protests? How are you now? 
riots in new york. i listened to these guys freestyle and dance and alot of my tralever squatter homeboys and girls are coming for this protest agaisnt the republican convention. I think i got my court date delayed again. i keep prolonging this jail shit but i need more time to get off the methadone. that shit is fucked by the way, if you're a...
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ilsa:
Hey thanks for your comment, I hope you can prolong the jail as long as you can, so I can read your journal often. If not, you should write me from jail! 
Good luck with the methadone thing and don't let drugs control you. I feel kinda identified with you when I read your journal because my ex bf did a lot of drugs (everything except heroin) and they're hard to quit, but you seem strong and I'm sure you'll do it.
Good luck with the methadone thing and don't let drugs control you. I feel kinda identified with you when I read your journal because my ex bf did a lot of drugs (everything except heroin) and they're hard to quit, but you seem strong and I'm sure you'll do it.
pumpkineater:
lily.................................................................................................................................................................................soon. support. comfort. back here............
love,
p
love,
p
they say all great empires fall, and thats me falling. just a few more days and i'll be locked in a cell. i can't use pretty words for this cause its just not pretty. they've been rapidly detoxing off of methadone and i'm in so much physical pain. i can feel poisons leaking out of my bones and it hurts. we all have strange lives,...
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karma2:
found it
ilsa:
I always read your journal because I love the way you write but I've never left you a comment...
How long are you gonna be in jail? Good luck
PS- if you want ppl to buy you things from your whislist you've to enter a shipping adress.
How long are you gonna be in jail? Good luck
PS- if you want ppl to buy you things from your whislist you've to enter a shipping adress.
Somewhere in her words i lost the need to self destruct, maybe if i could sit next to her on the park bench every day and study the lines in her face, trace her human heart shaped jail tattoo. She knows about the fire in our hearts. How sometimes the fire takes over and we die or are left broken. me and dee are broken...
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itzie:
you really are amazing
brandy:
Where you at these days?
black clouds covered the city today, made the morning fade to night and we were all baptized by the water gushing out with such force like the sky was giving birth. I smiled while watching everyone dodge the rain and run inside or under anything they could. I just stood there until my clothes were soaked, Letting the water run over me, watching the lightning...
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fdnymedic:
thanks for the b-day wish..yea i would like to hang out...i go bck to work on thursday night so anytime before that is cool with me...give me a call whenever. i hope you are doing good!
scumbag:
bitch call me i cant call out 386-3456 845 i miss you so much
Okay nevermind. some things are better left unsaid. unread undead. I've been compulsively rhyming and thinking about what it would be like to have no eyes. My Lady Trix has a glass eye. I want one. maybe two. frusturated beyond belief. Shutup, don't talk to me. You'll only make it worse. why is there hardly any fucking strip clubs in New York? fuck, i need...
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tahliana:
work on a computer all day doing graphic design stuff... a bit of video work/animation here and there. id much prefer to work on a film set or on a stage playing music though... or to just travel around the world.
one...day...
one...day...
siqkat:
If you want, I can check some places out in DC. I have a friend who is the disc jockey at one of the clubs. He also does the walking to cars and that. As I said before, the pay is really good. If you would rather, I could send you his e-mail to your contact and you can reach him. He would even take a call But if NYC is where you want to be for now Stormy's ideas looked pretty good to me and so does miss_lady I go by those that have experience. Hope your well 
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But if NYC is where you want to be for now Stormy's ideas looked pretty good to me and so does miss_lady I go by those that have experience. Hope your well [Edited on Aug 10, 2004 11:44PM]
fuck
paulnikon:
I could use one of those.
mikael:
i found this page on google. Bummer, pic doesn't work.
The whole dying part of life is a tough subject to figure out, but my theories are banking on just rotting. I dunno if that's pessimistic or not.