kungfury

Hey peeps hope you’re doing well and had a good Easter weekend. Hope you all had plenty of chocolates and probably hangovers for most of yous lol. It’s been a while since I’ve done a blog on my mental health and done an update. Since I do want to talk about mental health since it is important to me.

So how am I doing?

To tell yous peeps the truth. I’m still a bit depressed. Even though things have been better. It’s been sunny but I feel like it’s raining all the time. Nothing but sorrow. Yeah even though my online life has been great. Chatting to a few of the models, getting on front page multiple of times, my fan accounts are a success, gaining followers/friends more each day and so on. I thank yous for that. When I say that I appreciate it, I’m grateful and yous are the best at the end on my blogs. I mean it. I know being on the internet it’s hard to tell who’s truthful or who’s not. Trust me I’m am truly grateful, truly appreciate it and no bullshit yous are the best. Nothing I say is an act. I do love yous all. Yous are all dope ppl. No drama or hate.

Unfortunately my own personal life is usually full of that. Especially at get togethers. I’m mostly a loner. And I’m usually surrounded by toxic people. Even though I do my best but they just keep putting me down. Maybe not intended but they do. Even though I do speak and say about. Weakly I should add since I struggle with having a lot of confidence. But I do try to stand up for myself. I know my folks care for me. They help me out. Their the most generous people I know. That’s how I’m usually always cool with everyone. It’s in the genes lol. But unfortunately I get a lot of negativity from my siblings & relatives. Most love to shove their perfect life in my face, being all ignorant about it. Like their better than you. I have a lot of relatives since I have 7 or so uncles. And it’s too many ppl. Unfortunately most are pretty middle class. Especially from my sister in law side. So I see a lot of successful people but also assholes lol. They usually don’t talk to me. When they do it’s an insult. They talk to me like a child. Like I’m a nobody. One of my uncles even said I’ll never achieve anything cause I’m not as gifted as my siblings. Class act right?

Well I’m on the Suicide Girl front page with my blogs so fuck you Uncle who I won’t name lol.

As you expect it hurts me a lot. Get togethers are the worst and it usually happens every weekend for me. That’s why I usually hate the weekends. Cause I don’t forward it. My folks are sometimes too nice and they don’t stand for themselves either. Even though I say I’m not happy. I feel a loner and an outcast in these get togethers. Cause they don’t talk to me. They never txt me, hang out or say we care/love you. My friends do that but unfortunately their usually busy so I don’t see them as much as I like.

Hell I chat to yous peeps more often. It’s mad. Outside of that pain in the arse. I do feel depressed a lot. But I learned that I just to get out of my shell. Been speaking to a lot of yous. Especially @xheartswornx @kaptaine who I have on WhatsApp. They’ve been great mates to me. Even thinking of adding more people on my WhatsApp. Don’t worry I’m not forcing anyone or anything. Just if you do want to chat to me.

If any of yous are, dm me. Well I need to know yous first. Like if we DM’ed and that a bunch of times. It’s up to yous. @xheartswornx give me the idea. Thought yeah why not I got nothing to lose.

I do think the blogs, fan accounts, the interactions, etc have helped me out to cope. Even subbing to @rubyalexia @phianixx @syrinn @blaizee @nayru @ohsammiii @tommy @beckah etcs OnlyFans, @reallifepirate admireme (it’s great btw like her premium Snapchat), XtremePlaypen, @tripodski @keshia etc Patreons and so forth has helped me cope. Since I love giving back so I’m helping them out. Their great ppl so far to me. Making this depressed Asperger dude smile a bit. Like my video games, tv, films, music, cooking, etc. It’s been awesome and I thank yous. I’m grateful to yous without sounding like a corny prick hahaha.

My Favourite SG Sets blogs are usually something I look forward to. As well as posting my WCWs, MCMs, etc on my fan accounts. As well as writing more blogs til you’re sick and tired of it haha.

I do love it. I think it’s pretty awesome that so many people love my blogs. Especially considering that I was on a glamour modelling forum not long ago. It was a forum dedicated to a famous glamour model we had in the UK. Very gorgeous lass.

And basically the mods on there were right bastards. I was making suggestions. Basically keeping it active but they had none of it. Basically all of them basically giving me middle fingers a plenty. All because I suggested stuff to help the forums. Said I wouldn’t achieve anything too. Some supporters right? They were running a fan forum and basically shitting on me for suggesting to improve the site. Well there you go. I was respectful and anything like I usually am. I had models messaging me on my fan accounts saying they don’t me to post one pic. Hell one glamour model I posted on a appreciation post want me to stop posting pics of her glamour work since she’s a lingerie model now and doesn’t want to get into trouble. You know I did? I listened and done it. I removed them on their wishes cause that’s what my fan accounts are for. To support the gorgeous ladies of the alt/glamour world. If there’s nothing they don’t like, I listen. I do my best to please everyone. I welcome any feedback within reason.

That’s what I learned from being on that forum. I’ve learned to never be like them. That’s why it’s closed. For the best since it was run by douchebags.

I’m definitely not like that at all. I know doing this job that yous ladies do is tough. I know it’s a lot of work for yous photographers. I do know that blogging is a lot of work cause I’m doing it now. That’s why @xheartswornx got my respect like everyone else is with me (I know please 🤞🏻lol) . So yeah we all know it’s tough. Especially with Instagram being like the forums I was on, run by dickheads lol.

So never give up, never surrender on supporting each other. Cause it’s suppose to be enjoyment, fun, entertainment, beautiful and art. That’s what I think of Alt/glamour/sex work or whatever you want to call it. It’s a positive thing I believe. Some ppl take it the wrong way sure but ppl like me & others know that it’s there to be our light in our own darkness. So it should be respected. Ppl who don’t well I leave it to the ladies or @nayru as she has good at dissing those naysayers like many of yous ladies. I admire & envy your confidence. Hopefully one day I will fully. Til then I’ll keep improving.

How I’m improving my mental health and what’s my plan? There’s a few things I’m doing. Write more blogs. I love to write, it’s been great therapy. Cook/bake, I love cooking and baking. They really help and I’m good at it. Walk more, hopefully I can do hiking soon. I would love that. Right now I only got the one walk way and it is a pain to get to it since I have to go through traffic for it. It can be a pain but once I get to the countryside it’s worth it. I wish I was out there living there. Feel at peace there. Very good for mental health. Aromatherapy, yeah I’ve got Essential Oil Infuser and it’s been great. It’s actually helped me sleep better. I don’t have sleepless nights having anxiety attacks. It’s been helping big time so far, highly recommend it. Also my Wii Fit. Yeah that’s right Wii Fit lol. It does work. It has Yoga programs on it, body fat burn off exercises, etc. By the time I write this, I only started it and already I’m sore lol. So it does work. I liking it so far. Why Wii Fit you may ask, well I checked out the local gyms in my area. Tbh with you, I didn’t like it. There not exactly the awesome gyms I see on a few Instagram stories like @reallifepirate and so forth. It’s mostly in a warehouse hut. No joke it’s tiny and it was modded. Thought no way. And the other gym I checked out was crowded too. It was bigger than that one. But it wasn’t great. It look like it came from Art Attack (an old kid’s art show I watched growing up) and it was mostly full of meatheads showing off. I’m like noooooo lol. Yeah so I was thinking of doing yoga at home while looking it up. I saw Wii Fit and thought perfect since I am collecting for the Wii. I’m also collect video games. I love it. Even though I need to build some units in my room atm. But it’s getting there. And last but not least talk to a doctor or someone professional. Yeah I need to have a good convo with a professional who specialises on mental health and how I can improve on it & get the help I need. I’ve been around. Support didn’t work so I need something else. I think I just need a professional. Think I need to see the GP and see what’s the best option you know. Anything helps.

So yeah that’s my wee mental health update. If you’re new to me. I usually do these blogs now and then. Don’t worry the Favourite SG Sets blog is coming later this week. Trust me it’s a goodie lol. Maybe do another video game one like my Resident Evil one which you can check out on this link here or maybe a Favourite Tunes one. Who knows so many ideas lol.

If yous want I’ve already written blogs on my mental health issues in these blogs which you can check out below.

My step to battling my depression and anxiety

How walks, cooking and being more positive is saving my life

My loneliness, isolation, depression and ASD (Aspergers)

Pushing myself to kill my loneliness

Improving but still not there yet

Video games, depression, isolation, Netflix and less Social Media. My life atm!

My battle with mental health and a bit of my personal life!!

That’s all of them so far. So if yous like to know more behind the dude behind the awesome Favourite SG Sets blogs then here you go. You’ll see there not popular but I still think there my best blogs still. I put my soul into those. If everyone would have told me which blogs I think are my best work it’ll be these. Because mental health awareness means a lot to me. Also acceptances too since my ASD is been misunderstood for many years. So if anyone understands mental health issues, feeling like ppl don’t respect you, etc. It’s me & others. You’re not alone.

Feel free to talk to me. Trust me I’m more shy & anxious than you are believe me haha.

Anyway that’s me rambling on long enough, thank you all for reading this blog. Like I said I truly appreciate it and like I said also yous are the best. Til my blog this is KungFury saying take care, much love and remember you’re not alone. We’re in this together!!

@missy @rambo @sean